The weekend is nearly over now and it feels like it’s been a very long one. I’ve been quite busy since Thursday and now keen to relax. I feel pretty tired and I’m not happy about this. This means I have to do something to improve my energy levels.

Thursday

Gender Counselling session:

I had an appointment to see the gender counsellor at ( Read more... )

The beginning of the week has passed without any hiccups so far. I’ve managed to re-book an appointment with my counsellor, which of course has made me a bit anxious as usual.

Saturday

On Saturday night I went over to my old friend’s house to watch a film. I felt very anxious before I went but it all was fine. I kind of see my old ( Read more... )

Well, now I am hoping to go to Brighton Pride and stay with some friends there for the weekend. Then maybe sooner or later I will just come out as Queer, which I really am. I hope to make shorter journal entries more often now but don’t take my word on this ha!

Well, it looks like I’m back here again after a few months absence. Not necessary easy months where I didn’t need to write anything down though. Since my last journal entry I was struggling for things to write. I didn’t want to go over old stuff really.

And so I start writing again, with a little reluctance but here. My thought processes are ( Read more... )

Lately issues have been building up in my mind and so I need to try off load it all here in my journal. I had a dream this morning that was the event that made me write. I remember two dreams within my dream.

In the first part of my dream I was at high school. For some reason many hundreds of kids were re-enacting World War I battles. I ( Read more... )

Today was an interesting day and I felt I wanted to write about it. Woke up far too early probably because my body clock was still in early mode from my previous shift pattern at work. Felt really quite groggy though when I finally got up but couldn't think of anything to make myself feel better.

Probably my own fault because I'd gone out for ( Read more... )

This last week has felt so strange and I have experienced a number of emotions, feelings and thoughts all at the same time. These seem to change quite profoundly though and do not stay focused for long.

I felt very odd after telling my counsellor about me taking hormone therapy under the counter. I was so nervous and even after I told her ( Read more... )

I have felt lost lately and like an unwritten chapter in a book. It feels like I’m the one trying to write my own book and my own suggestions and other peoples are making it hard to concentrate. I know I don’t want to be someone else for someone else because I feel I’ve been there to often. I just want to be true to myself whatever path that may ( Read more... )

These past few days since Wednesday have been pretty troubled. Something inside me is stirring that is making me very upset. The more I think about my feelings the more I feel upset. It knots me up inside. I was very reluctant to write lately because it feels so difficult. I am feeling very sad and sorry for myself, very melancholy. It almost ( Read more... )

I have felt so many emotions and been very upset for reasons I don't understand. I am not even sure where to start writing here. If I had one wish right now if would definitely be that I had been born a girl. I do feel ungrateful but I need to express this feeling to myself here. I feel that if I had been born a girl there would have been none of ( Read more... )