Angsty Angstry Crappy Angsty... Why oh why?
I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment in time. I'm feeling a lot of distress with my gender issues. It seems to come on strong whenever I'm feeling tired, frustrated or a bit icky. I know its possible to sort out these problems; just some more exercise and getting things back on track.
It seems whenever my moral is low I seem to become more distressed with my gender issues. I'm stressed about seeking employment before September next year and completing these university applications. I will get myself into gear after writing this as I'm feeling the benefits of writing this down already.
I am in one of those troughs again and at least I've identified that. I'm sure a peak will come around sooner or later again. When I get things back on a even keel again I don't think I will be angsting about pretty and cute girls as much, and beginning to hate more and more how I look again.
I don't get what this means really as I see myself as genderqueer these days. I don't want to be angsting about not being female! It gets confusing and conflicting sometimes and I best just relax my current definitions of my genderqueerness I guess as I've not even gone half way of my transition journey of life yet. I will try not fight this angst as well because it will only make a mountain out of a mole hill.
On the plus point, I'm riding on a high from seeing Oasis live in Birmingham, nice one! But I wish there was a policy about girls being too cute there. They made me so jealous! I'm so dumb!
It seems whenever my moral is low I seem to become more distressed with my gender issues. I'm stressed about seeking employment before September next year and completing these university applications. I will get myself into gear after writing this as I'm feeling the benefits of writing this down already.
I am in one of those troughs again and at least I've identified that. I'm sure a peak will come around sooner or later again. When I get things back on a even keel again I don't think I will be angsting about pretty and cute girls as much, and beginning to hate more and more how I look again.
I don't get what this means really as I see myself as genderqueer these days. I don't want to be angsting about not being female! It gets confusing and conflicting sometimes and I best just relax my current definitions of my genderqueerness I guess as I've not even gone half way of my transition journey of life yet. I will try not fight this angst as well because it will only make a mountain out of a mole hill.
On the plus point, I'm riding on a high from seeing Oasis live in Birmingham, nice one! But I wish there was a policy about girls being too cute there. They made me so jealous! I'm so dumb!