B/C i haven't updated in a while
ok hi
here's what's gone on this past...eternity
Sunday: Bad snow storm - begged tom not to go to work - trav plows snow as his job so he was already out there - i called him up crying and told him to be careful and to come home soon.
Monday: i didn't have school - snow storm and teacher day
Tuesday: Went to school - went to nurse with anxiety and i felt sick - Kristin (tom's ex called him) he hung up on her. i cried for a few hours - i had a massive panic attack - left early - went home - moped
Wednesday: Bad snow storm - had school - left at 11 due to snow - drove kay home (well i attempted to) - car skidded and ROLLED into a ditch filled with fluffy snow - car almost on its side - kay walked home - i got towed out - drove home.
Thursday: woke up from nightmares hyperventalating - school - anxiety due to inabiility to breathe well in class - almost passed out - went to nurse - weezing - layed down, nothing worked - went home early - sick
Friday: Stayed home from school sick - stomach hurts - breathing funny - sad - tom came over - still sad - felt better - still sick.
today: Sick - upset - lonely - stomach hurts - talked to Rachel first in a long time - she go a tattoo - talked to trav - he's going to vermont again when chris gets home from the army - sad - vermont = massive drinking - feel like crying - stomach making really strange noises and feels yucky - cat freaking out about birds outside - i told trav to not tell me about vermont when he gets back because i don't feel like being depressed - he said it was fine - told trav i was just looking out for him cuz he's my friend and i worry about him. - he said he knows - i have to go over olivia's to babysit tonight - i don't want to go cuz i feel like shit - i don't know why i feel so confused every time i call travis - he's my friend so i shouldn't be nervous to talk to him - i think i'm afraid of saying something wrong - or stirring up old memories that would make me upset - tom's working today - i miss him.
tomorrow: only god knows
here's what's gone on this past...eternity
Sunday: Bad snow storm - begged tom not to go to work - trav plows snow as his job so he was already out there - i called him up crying and told him to be careful and to come home soon.
Monday: i didn't have school - snow storm and teacher day
Tuesday: Went to school - went to nurse with anxiety and i felt sick - Kristin (tom's ex called him) he hung up on her. i cried for a few hours - i had a massive panic attack - left early - went home - moped
Wednesday: Bad snow storm - had school - left at 11 due to snow - drove kay home (well i attempted to) - car skidded and ROLLED into a ditch filled with fluffy snow - car almost on its side - kay walked home - i got towed out - drove home.
Thursday: woke up from nightmares hyperventalating - school - anxiety due to inabiility to breathe well in class - almost passed out - went to nurse - weezing - layed down, nothing worked - went home early - sick
Friday: Stayed home from school sick - stomach hurts - breathing funny - sad - tom came over - still sad - felt better - still sick.
today: Sick - upset - lonely - stomach hurts - talked to Rachel first in a long time - she go a tattoo - talked to trav - he's going to vermont again when chris gets home from the army - sad - vermont = massive drinking - feel like crying - stomach making really strange noises and feels yucky - cat freaking out about birds outside - i told trav to not tell me about vermont when he gets back because i don't feel like being depressed - he said it was fine - told trav i was just looking out for him cuz he's my friend and i worry about him. - he said he knows - i have to go over olivia's to babysit tonight - i don't want to go cuz i feel like shit - i don't know why i feel so confused every time i call travis - he's my friend so i shouldn't be nervous to talk to him - i think i'm afraid of saying something wrong - or stirring up old memories that would make me upset - tom's working today - i miss him.
tomorrow: only god knows