I am finished with you.

[black_bean007]

I just got off the phone with my dad. He still doesn't get it. Why do I have insane people in my family? I could be in Ethiopia and it's still not far enough away. How can things that happen 10 years ago still upset me so bad and why will it never stop? I don't care what that evil whore of a sister does from here on out, I'll never forgive her. She could drive down, beg for my forgiveness and I'd still just punch her in the face. Now we all make mistakes and I have learned not to judge anyone and I'll have to say she's my motivation, I strive to be successful and a good person, the opposite of her. My parents aren't perfect, but I love them unconditionally, because they're my parents and they love me. I don't like hating someone so much, but I always will hate her. A woman that was 8 months pregnant was squished by falling concrete in downtown Lexington this week and my first thought was why couldn't it have been her? I know that's bad, but this woman had something to live for and goals in her life, it's not fair that horrible people get to walk the earth and bitch and keep on staying lucky enough to be alive.

Yeah, life isn't fair and I'm pretty sure I'll never understand. But we suck it up, move on, have fun, laugh and love because we're lucky enough to have that chance.

I'm excited to see Erin, Brian and some other people graduate next weekend and I'm also happy to see my family but in a way, I dread it terribly. Just being in the state of Kentucky is a reminder of a bad past, so I'm glad I'll have Murd with me because she's a ball of giggles and it's impossible to be in a bad mood with her around.

Sorry for the rant, it's been a long day.