full circle
what are the chances? last journal entry was about miriam hooking up with danny, and out of random curiosty, i come one here, right after everything thats happened. FULL CIRCLE. im telliing every oppostie and random event comes aruond to make some sort of sphere where its impossible to differenciate one thing from another. perfection is imperfection. to hate is to love. living and dying in one solid motion. disgust and lust (and not for the rhyme [though it does sound poetic]). people you never expect to see again or people you never cared for at all taking a place in your life, never anticipated. ITS ALL FULL CIRCLE. i love it; its fantastic. the yin and the yang! who would have known? its not profound, i know, but its admirable. and to that i give a toast :] but really EVERYTHING comes full circle and thats when it starts to amaze me. it can easily be applied to any aspect of life. from deepest sorrow comes the most passionate of creation. "failure's art" if you will. and who knows? maybe creationism isnt such a bad idea, in other words maybe we are failure's art. im sure its not unusual, but im not ordinarialy one to create in celebration, the only time i do (and by saying i do i mean doing so without the end result feeling very similar to that of vanity) is out of love and usually even then its over a passion thats gone sour. but lately it seems everyone's been creating out of vanity vs. emotions anyways. i still cant understand why emotions have to turn people off. i mean what really is turning them off anyways? if i were arguing with myself (which it seems i am)id say no one wants drama, but i get the feeling thats just not the case. the way i see it, no one wants to see you naked. that kind of pure, and raw emotionl honesty is like watching a dog hump a fire hydrant..