more me
This constant warring inside my head is beginning to drive me mad. It's so difficult to express myself to others outwardly whilst I spout such outlandish lies. I can only truly show myself through writing and that is why it's so precious to me. My mind has such completely different personalities it's hard to even know what I am feeling any more. My feelings are so vastly different on a subject. My emotional part feels some things whilst my inner self is calculating ways to exploit it and I am slowly torn in half. This war in my mind has drained me of the true comprehension of feelings. I think it must hurt me. But at the same time I am too numb to know if it actually does.