Been a long time since I rock and rolled.
I think it has been about a year since I wrote in this?
Should I recap a year of my life? Ok, if you insist.
What I remember about summer:
Skateboarding. Breaking up and getting back with girlfriend. Working at Vons in extreme heat pushing carts. Skateboarding. Breaking up and getting back with girlfriend. I got braces. I got a new car. I got back with my old band.
For summer till now:
(fall)
Started at csuci. I like it there. Serene, beautiful, open, green. Met a few new people there. Joined a catholic club. Stopped hanging out with my friends. Worked at Big5. My dad hit my car. Relationship with old girlfriend deteriorating. Becoming bitter with life.
(spring)
New semester, nothing changed. Motivation for school going to heck, relationship with old girlfriend now a memory I tend to want to forget. A series of unfortunate events. Got another job at the U.S.P.S, worked one day there, took two days of training in Valencia. Got sick after first day, called in sick next day, day after was fired. Depressed. Lost hope in most things/people. Need to get out.
Started hanging out with friends again (thank-you), realized that everyone is not so screwed up, and I know some of the best people around. Started recording a full length cd with my band. Got my car fixed. Still need to go to school more often, but is getting better.
(now)
I am happy with the people I know, and in great gratitude for who they are and what they stand for. I am happy with the music I am playing, and my band (747) is playing at "the biggest event of the year" at CSUCI with Sugarcult.
(conclusion)
Love is a difficult task that can be as destructive as it can be wonderful. To put so much hope, faith, care...your whole being into someone else and have it come back to you in the ways of disrespect, apathy, lack of compassion... is the worse feeling I have ever experienced.
You can really only trust is one thing. Hope is for everything else.
To fear love is to fear living. Love requires (sometimes) the sacrifice of your interests or how or what you may feel is necessary. Logic will never teach you how to love. Common sense will never teach you how to love. Reason will do nothing either. The strongest intellects and the greatest minds do nothing when it comes to love. Love is the accumulation of our thougts and the actions (emotions) they produce towards ourselves and others. When the focus of our lives is centered on others, we can then see how love take root.
To know and understand that this life is larger than what we will ever be gives us the motivation to give. To cross the threshold of self to everyone else is entirely up to the individual.
God's purpose is meaningless without our involvement.
You can never force anyone to be happier or to love you more (or at all). This was the hardest lesson for me to learn in the last year.
It's time to live and be happy again.
Thanks.
Should I recap a year of my life? Ok, if you insist.
What I remember about summer:
Skateboarding. Breaking up and getting back with girlfriend. Working at Vons in extreme heat pushing carts. Skateboarding. Breaking up and getting back with girlfriend. I got braces. I got a new car. I got back with my old band.
For summer till now:
(fall)
Started at csuci. I like it there. Serene, beautiful, open, green. Met a few new people there. Joined a catholic club. Stopped hanging out with my friends. Worked at Big5. My dad hit my car. Relationship with old girlfriend deteriorating. Becoming bitter with life.
(spring)
New semester, nothing changed. Motivation for school going to heck, relationship with old girlfriend now a memory I tend to want to forget. A series of unfortunate events. Got another job at the U.S.P.S, worked one day there, took two days of training in Valencia. Got sick after first day, called in sick next day, day after was fired. Depressed. Lost hope in most things/people. Need to get out.
Started hanging out with friends again (thank-you), realized that everyone is not so screwed up, and I know some of the best people around. Started recording a full length cd with my band. Got my car fixed. Still need to go to school more often, but is getting better.
(now)
I am happy with the people I know, and in great gratitude for who they are and what they stand for. I am happy with the music I am playing, and my band (747) is playing at "the biggest event of the year" at CSUCI with Sugarcult.
(conclusion)
Love is a difficult task that can be as destructive as it can be wonderful. To put so much hope, faith, care...your whole being into someone else and have it come back to you in the ways of disrespect, apathy, lack of compassion... is the worse feeling I have ever experienced.
You can really only trust is one thing. Hope is for everything else.
To fear love is to fear living. Love requires (sometimes) the sacrifice of your interests or how or what you may feel is necessary. Logic will never teach you how to love. Common sense will never teach you how to love. Reason will do nothing either. The strongest intellects and the greatest minds do nothing when it comes to love. Love is the accumulation of our thougts and the actions (emotions) they produce towards ourselves and others. When the focus of our lives is centered on others, we can then see how love take root.
To know and understand that this life is larger than what we will ever be gives us the motivation to give. To cross the threshold of self to everyone else is entirely up to the individual.
God's purpose is meaningless without our involvement.
You can never force anyone to be happier or to love you more (or at all). This was the hardest lesson for me to learn in the last year.
It's time to live and be happy again.
Thanks.