"...But there comes a time to see what it looks like from the dance floor"
Everything is finally back to normal and now winter break is in full throttle and in a way, I'm perfectly satisfied with everything. and though parts of me still feel unfinished, I don't really care because now I know that somethings are better left alone even if it doesn't seem like everything that should have been said or done was said or done.
I would update about Christmas and Christmas Eve, but I dont think that its worth it because I'm sure that everyone's entries will sound the same except with different places, names, and meaningless expensive presents that we all feel guilty for getting now that we know Santa doesn't bring them. But I will say Merry Christmas even though its late. I hope everyones was really nice and satisfying.
My sister gave me a present on Christmas Eve. I feel guilty cause I didn't get her anything, but she didn't care. I think were starting to get closer now that college is coming for her. I'm kind of glad about this cause I'm really going to miss her even if we don't get along sometimes. Anyway, she handed me the gift and told me that she hoped it "gave me a new perspective on high school and life in general." I opened it and it was the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I just finished it a few minutes ago. It was very good like the Catcher in the Rye. Those are my favorite types of books, where the author writes like the character talks. I think everyone should write like that, even in school, but then I guess these books wouldn't be so different and so good, so nevermind. This was probably the only present I got that meant something to me, so its the only one I'm going to bring up. It was a very good book. It was like a live journal where every thought I've ever had, but couldn't put into words was written down. I liked it because it made me feel like I wasn't alone and I wasn't the only one who thought and worried about things that don't really matter. and I know that millions of teenagers will read this book and feel the same way so I feel satisfied.
I hope everyone's winter break is going really well because mine is even though i'm sick, but I don't think that really matters right now. I'll leave you with a quote from The Perks of Being a Wallflower:
"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."