PAIN OF LOVE - 01
|Uruha(麗)X
Aoi(葵), Reita(れいた)xAoi(葵), Uruha(麗)xOFC|Gazette|Au,Angst|G|no beta|adult content|
"the past is the one we should let go, the past is the one we must forget to move on and get better. But, can I?"
Aoi has been sitting on his bed for hours now, the ring of his cell phone is being ignored. Not that he didn't hear its ringing for the hundred times that day, but more because Aoi wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone else. His voice wouldn't let him to speak coherently, steadily. His voice will only makes people wonder about what happens to him, is he okay, and he didn't want to make any fake explanation about his cracking and breaking voice, to tell anyone that he's okay. They, whoever called him will not believe him anyway. Since they're all know that he's not. And obviously, he will not try to pretend that he was. He is broken, yes. And the only way for him to let out whatever storm inside his chest was by pouring his tears until the very last drop, mourning his misery. That way, maybe, just maybe the pain would be gone in the same time the last tear dripped.
oOo
Aoi was lost in the middle of the crowd, he shook his head from side to side carefully, examining the room, wishing to find any faces he's familiar with. "It shouldn't be like this, it couldn't be like this." His mind keeps repeating those same words, over and over. He got madder when minutes passed and still noone he knew was there. Suddenly the anger directed to Reita, his current boyfriend who couldn't be there to make him company. The spiked-haired man was always sticked by his side, no matter Aoi like it or not, mostly Aoi will be upset and tell the taller to give him some space. But now, why'd he's nowhere near him the time he needs him the most?
He wants to cry so badly, he feels like a lost children in the middle of a strange surrounding engulfed by darkness despite all noisy noises around him.
A light tap on his right shoulder brought him back to reality. He almost wants to scream, cry, and jump in the same time. The rush of joy came from inside his chest couldn't be hold, almost.
That same looks, that same gaze, that same smile greeted him warmingly. Ignored all contradictive feeling inside his heart and mind, he managed to act calm. Greeted the man before his eyes with a simple `hello` plus a simple casual smile.
He feels kind of relieve, at least he knows someone there. The honey-blonde guy in front of him nodded to reply his greeting.
"you look just beautiful as I knew, you haven't changed yet from the last time I saw you." that simple comment made his smile fall drastically. The memory from the past that he's trying so hard to forget was playing like a movie, clear like blue sky in the middle of summer. But he wouldn't fall and break like when he was in the past, he wouldn't let his guard down easily this time. So he just shrugged his shoulder indifferently.
"I still remember when you let me go in the airport, your tears wouldn't stop dripping and I have to assured you that everything's gonna be okay so that you'd let me go. That's happened years ago but look like just yesterday, ne?" Aoi didn't answer the question, because he knew the other didn't need any.
"and you know what? You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. With face soaked eyes, you tried to be strong. You know that day I want to just canc-"
"ENOUGH, URUHA!" they both shocked. Aoi didn't think his voice would come out that loud. Some people around them stopped whatever they did to directed their gaze toward them. Aoi faked a cough to erased the tense.
"I mean, why don't you introduce your soon to be wife to me? I mean, don't you wanna?" he inserted his faked smile. Uruha, the honey blond guy just nodded and lead the way.
oOo
She's beautiful, Aoi has to admit. The slender body, shiny black hair, a pair of pale long legs, porcelain like skin, wide rounded dark brown eyes, he never saw any perfect couple like them, Uruha and that women he knew by now named Arisa. She's also nice and he sure anyone would be easily falling for her. But, Aoi didn't. He didnt't even know where's those hatred feeling toward the woman came. All he knew was that unreasonable hatred directed to Arisa. The melodious laughter from the women, whenever their coversation reached something funny only made Aoi want to throw up, his gut feels like being hit by punches. He's gonna faint right in the place if he stayed. He's about to excuse himself, but before he managed to performed any word, Uruha did the job.
"Risa-chan, me and Aoi have to go, you know, a reunion." Arisa only laugh and shoo-ed them playfully.
"She's beautiful." Aoi said. They're walking on the backyard of Aoi knew as Arisa's parents' house. The backyard was more calmer than another place in that house.
"yeah." was only Uruha's reply.
"you must be love her so much. You know you two are perfect together." Aoi only said that to make the awkward silent go. But, seemed like he's failed. The only answer he got was only that simple `yeah` or a nod.
"I heard you dated Reita. How's him?" Aoi freeze in the place. He didn't want Uruha to know that, yet. So Aoi didn't answer. They're just walking in silent until Arisa called Uruha's mobile phone, announced that dinner time has come.
Aoi found out in the dinner time of why he didn't know who all those people there were. That was because today all of them are Arisa's relatives. Uruha's is a week later. Aoi is invited, again. But he still wonder why he's here today, surrounded by Arisa's relatives. But he never spoke the question out.
The dinner went smoothly, then the house become less crowded since some people leave. Aoi was one of them ready to leave. It was an hour from the appointment time. Reita had promised to pick him after the party because he couldn't come with him, too busy with his work. Seemed like someone forgot the promise. Aoi had tried to call Reita numerous times but only answered by answer machine. He got frustated and decided to just have a cab to drive him home.
"AOI!" Aoi stopped by Uruha's voice called him. The taller run to him and smile kindly.
"i'll drive you home." Uruha gave him no time to protest and Aoi's right wrist was pulled towards Uruha's car.
The journey to Aoi's apartment was silent. None of them started any topic to be discussed. Only sometime Aoi told Uruha where to turn. They need only thirty minutes to reached their destination. Uruha turned off the car. They're amongst the silent. It's almost midnight so the world like turned to dead, like noone alive except them.
"thank you." Aoi reach the door to get out from the car.
"you moved," that wasn't a question, Aoi knew. That's only a statement to prove something already been proved.
"it's Reita's. I live with him now."
"are you happy?" Aoi didn't know how to answer that. Honestly he never expect that kind of question would be thrown at him. He also didnt know of why Uruha asked him that. Aoi tried to find any reason, tried to catch Uruha's gaze, hoped to find some in that pair of brown eyes, but hard since the other's gaze was directed far to the empty road in front of them. The only thing Aoi knew, those pair of eyes was empty.
"none of your business," Aoi escaped the car, slamed the door after him and got in the building of his apartment without a glance backward.
oOo
Warm trail of tear streaming down Aoi's face. He reached his shared apartment room only to find it's empty. The door was locked and all light inside are off. Actually Reita isn't home yet. He feels disappointed to have no company, he didn't like the loneliness, but also feel relieved. He isn't ready for Reita to see him in that state. He's broken. He managed to walk his life peacefully for years, he had forget his past and decided to move on, he sure. But, he knew he's wrong. The time he saw Uruha, he felt his inside quaking. All that memories with that certain honey-blond in the part that had been buried so deep all out to live. Those happy memories with Uruha only made Aoi bitter now. He doesn't need him anymore, he has Reita now, the most caring person who help him escaped the jail of his own misery. He didn't want to betray Reita by think another person who belong to someone else. Aoi cried so hard, mourning for what happened to him until the sleep taking its control.
He woken up by a warm body snuggle behind him on the mattress, hold him tightly and that alcohol aroma. Reita's drunk, he noted.
"you're late." mumbled Aoi.
"um." Reita nudged Aoi's neck with his nose, hug Aoi closer to his body.
"you didn't picked me like you should, " another hummed.
"you're drunk," no answer, and Aoi decided to talk about whatever in his head for later. He drove back to sleep in his lover arm, and all bad thought was gone, he loves Reita.
.T.B.C
A/n: I haven't write anything in months and I could tell my engris havent improved (yet?). So, should I continue? You decided ^.~v
Aoi(葵), Reita(れいた)xAoi(葵), Uruha(麗)xOFC|Gazette|Au,Angst|G|no beta|adult content|
"the past is the one we should let go, the past is the one we must forget to move on and get better. But, can I?"
Aoi has been sitting on his bed for hours now, the ring of his cell phone is being ignored. Not that he didn't hear its ringing for the hundred times that day, but more because Aoi wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone else. His voice wouldn't let him to speak coherently, steadily. His voice will only makes people wonder about what happens to him, is he okay, and he didn't want to make any fake explanation about his cracking and breaking voice, to tell anyone that he's okay. They, whoever called him will not believe him anyway. Since they're all know that he's not. And obviously, he will not try to pretend that he was. He is broken, yes. And the only way for him to let out whatever storm inside his chest was by pouring his tears until the very last drop, mourning his misery. That way, maybe, just maybe the pain would be gone in the same time the last tear dripped.
oOo
Aoi was lost in the middle of the crowd, he shook his head from side to side carefully, examining the room, wishing to find any faces he's familiar with. "It shouldn't be like this, it couldn't be like this." His mind keeps repeating those same words, over and over. He got madder when minutes passed and still noone he knew was there. Suddenly the anger directed to Reita, his current boyfriend who couldn't be there to make him company. The spiked-haired man was always sticked by his side, no matter Aoi like it or not, mostly Aoi will be upset and tell the taller to give him some space. But now, why'd he's nowhere near him the time he needs him the most?
He wants to cry so badly, he feels like a lost children in the middle of a strange surrounding engulfed by darkness despite all noisy noises around him.
A light tap on his right shoulder brought him back to reality. He almost wants to scream, cry, and jump in the same time. The rush of joy came from inside his chest couldn't be hold, almost.
That same looks, that same gaze, that same smile greeted him warmingly. Ignored all contradictive feeling inside his heart and mind, he managed to act calm. Greeted the man before his eyes with a simple `hello` plus a simple casual smile.
He feels kind of relieve, at least he knows someone there. The honey-blonde guy in front of him nodded to reply his greeting.
"you look just beautiful as I knew, you haven't changed yet from the last time I saw you." that simple comment made his smile fall drastically. The memory from the past that he's trying so hard to forget was playing like a movie, clear like blue sky in the middle of summer. But he wouldn't fall and break like when he was in the past, he wouldn't let his guard down easily this time. So he just shrugged his shoulder indifferently.
"I still remember when you let me go in the airport, your tears wouldn't stop dripping and I have to assured you that everything's gonna be okay so that you'd let me go. That's happened years ago but look like just yesterday, ne?" Aoi didn't answer the question, because he knew the other didn't need any.
"and you know what? You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. With face soaked eyes, you tried to be strong. You know that day I want to just canc-"
"ENOUGH, URUHA!" they both shocked. Aoi didn't think his voice would come out that loud. Some people around them stopped whatever they did to directed their gaze toward them. Aoi faked a cough to erased the tense.
"I mean, why don't you introduce your soon to be wife to me? I mean, don't you wanna?" he inserted his faked smile. Uruha, the honey blond guy just nodded and lead the way.
oOo
She's beautiful, Aoi has to admit. The slender body, shiny black hair, a pair of pale long legs, porcelain like skin, wide rounded dark brown eyes, he never saw any perfect couple like them, Uruha and that women he knew by now named Arisa. She's also nice and he sure anyone would be easily falling for her. But, Aoi didn't. He didnt't even know where's those hatred feeling toward the woman came. All he knew was that unreasonable hatred directed to Arisa. The melodious laughter from the women, whenever their coversation reached something funny only made Aoi want to throw up, his gut feels like being hit by punches. He's gonna faint right in the place if he stayed. He's about to excuse himself, but before he managed to performed any word, Uruha did the job.
"Risa-chan, me and Aoi have to go, you know, a reunion." Arisa only laugh and shoo-ed them playfully.
"She's beautiful." Aoi said. They're walking on the backyard of Aoi knew as Arisa's parents' house. The backyard was more calmer than another place in that house.
"yeah." was only Uruha's reply.
"you must be love her so much. You know you two are perfect together." Aoi only said that to make the awkward silent go. But, seemed like he's failed. The only answer he got was only that simple `yeah` or a nod.
"I heard you dated Reita. How's him?" Aoi freeze in the place. He didn't want Uruha to know that, yet. So Aoi didn't answer. They're just walking in silent until Arisa called Uruha's mobile phone, announced that dinner time has come.
Aoi found out in the dinner time of why he didn't know who all those people there were. That was because today all of them are Arisa's relatives. Uruha's is a week later. Aoi is invited, again. But he still wonder why he's here today, surrounded by Arisa's relatives. But he never spoke the question out.
The dinner went smoothly, then the house become less crowded since some people leave. Aoi was one of them ready to leave. It was an hour from the appointment time. Reita had promised to pick him after the party because he couldn't come with him, too busy with his work. Seemed like someone forgot the promise. Aoi had tried to call Reita numerous times but only answered by answer machine. He got frustated and decided to just have a cab to drive him home.
"AOI!" Aoi stopped by Uruha's voice called him. The taller run to him and smile kindly.
"i'll drive you home." Uruha gave him no time to protest and Aoi's right wrist was pulled towards Uruha's car.
The journey to Aoi's apartment was silent. None of them started any topic to be discussed. Only sometime Aoi told Uruha where to turn. They need only thirty minutes to reached their destination. Uruha turned off the car. They're amongst the silent. It's almost midnight so the world like turned to dead, like noone alive except them.
"thank you." Aoi reach the door to get out from the car.
"you moved," that wasn't a question, Aoi knew. That's only a statement to prove something already been proved.
"it's Reita's. I live with him now."
"are you happy?" Aoi didn't know how to answer that. Honestly he never expect that kind of question would be thrown at him. He also didnt know of why Uruha asked him that. Aoi tried to find any reason, tried to catch Uruha's gaze, hoped to find some in that pair of brown eyes, but hard since the other's gaze was directed far to the empty road in front of them. The only thing Aoi knew, those pair of eyes was empty.
"none of your business," Aoi escaped the car, slamed the door after him and got in the building of his apartment without a glance backward.
oOo
Warm trail of tear streaming down Aoi's face. He reached his shared apartment room only to find it's empty. The door was locked and all light inside are off. Actually Reita isn't home yet. He feels disappointed to have no company, he didn't like the loneliness, but also feel relieved. He isn't ready for Reita to see him in that state. He's broken. He managed to walk his life peacefully for years, he had forget his past and decided to move on, he sure. But, he knew he's wrong. The time he saw Uruha, he felt his inside quaking. All that memories with that certain honey-blond in the part that had been buried so deep all out to live. Those happy memories with Uruha only made Aoi bitter now. He doesn't need him anymore, he has Reita now, the most caring person who help him escaped the jail of his own misery. He didn't want to betray Reita by think another person who belong to someone else. Aoi cried so hard, mourning for what happened to him until the sleep taking its control.
He woken up by a warm body snuggle behind him on the mattress, hold him tightly and that alcohol aroma. Reita's drunk, he noted.
"you're late." mumbled Aoi.
"um." Reita nudged Aoi's neck with his nose, hug Aoi closer to his body.
"you didn't picked me like you should, " another hummed.
"you're drunk," no answer, and Aoi decided to talk about whatever in his head for later. He drove back to sleep in his lover arm, and all bad thought was gone, he loves Reita.
.T.B.C
A/n: I haven't write anything in months and I could tell my engris havent improved (yet?). So, should I continue? You decided ^.~v