confused
well here I am at work and I don't know when it was the last time that I wrote in this damn thing, I mean I do this even with my hand written journal. I do really good and then I forget about it. I dont know what my problem is.
Well, I can't remember when it was so I will just start off by last weekend. Gabe and I went to church together and then we went to dinner. The rest of the week was soooooooooo fucking busy. Monday preparing for two lessons that would be taught on tuesday, teaching two lessons on tuesday and then working from 3-11 every day. And then to top it off I am not in a good mood today.
I am in sooo much pain that it hurts to even move but I have to move because I have to work.
Anyways, I have been doing a lot of thinking and I realized that I have fallen for Gabe. This scares me soo much because I have gotten my heart broken so many times before but at the same time I am so happy that I have found that one person that I really can be myself around and that actually encourages me to be myself and to never change. He makes me feel so wonderful about me and about what I can do and never discourages me or even puts me down. I just don't know what to do. I mean do I let him know how I feel, I think not, but at the same time it is not fair to him that I am not open about the way that I feel. I am just fucking confused and wish that I knew what to do.
Anyway I gotta get back to work.
peace
Well, I can't remember when it was so I will just start off by last weekend. Gabe and I went to church together and then we went to dinner. The rest of the week was soooooooooo fucking busy. Monday preparing for two lessons that would be taught on tuesday, teaching two lessons on tuesday and then working from 3-11 every day. And then to top it off I am not in a good mood today.
I am in sooo much pain that it hurts to even move but I have to move because I have to work.
Anyways, I have been doing a lot of thinking and I realized that I have fallen for Gabe. This scares me soo much because I have gotten my heart broken so many times before but at the same time I am so happy that I have found that one person that I really can be myself around and that actually encourages me to be myself and to never change. He makes me feel so wonderful about me and about what I can do and never discourages me or even puts me down. I just don't know what to do. I mean do I let him know how I feel, I think not, but at the same time it is not fair to him that I am not open about the way that I feel. I am just fucking confused and wish that I knew what to do.
Anyway I gotta get back to work.
peace