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despite how bad christmas could have been it was pretty ok. i was the LAST person awake and downstairs, exactly how i planned it. im sick and tired of christmas being so material. i really am. yeah ok so i got some really cool stuff but that doesnt mean im going to be a retard about it be like my sister and beg for more presents. as E pointed out, even if it was a "light" christmas, were alot luckier than the average american. my cousins, Emma, Ian, and Adrian are coming down here with their parents Uncle Ducan [ma's baby brother] and Aunt Skip. i really love my relatives on ma's side... E always knows what makes a girl go woooot, she got me a credit card! and bobbie got me a really spiffy gift card for target, oma and opa got me loads too, like just as spiffy a gift card for BAM. wow im sounding so materialistic this is terrible... but last night was my favourtie gift so far. i really enjoyed it. i had like a two hour long conversation with Ken. gah, hes so cool to talk to! its almost embarassing how much i like him. as follows, some highlights of the conversation: i M0SH 4 JESUS: i mean with dj i made his life hell by telling him how much i loved him night after night for months and he had trouble getting over me and i loved being able to know that he was always going to be there ... but it was killing us. i M0SH 4 JESUS: after that we could never go out again, you know? i M0SH 4 JESUS: we knew it was over P aC p Et 8 7: yeah, I know exactly what u mean P aC p Et 8 7: and thats waht I feel like she's doing to me now P aC p Et 8 7: she tells me that she loves me like everytime we talk but then when I see her at school it's like a whole different story i M0SH 4 JESUS: exactly i M0SH 4 JESUS: crap... stop sounding like us lol ok, so i was just a really big tard and i exited the conversation, d'oh! so im going to try to re-cap what was said... ugh this is going to be terrible. well like he asked me if i had ever felt like i was loving with my head instead of my heart and i thought he meant like thinking you loved someone for so long that eventually u believed it, but he really meant that you want to love someone and try to but cant -- what does that mean?! god i thought girls were complicated. being the pessimist i am im going to think that he meant that hed like to like me but that were just friends and he cant. yeah... so then we found out that we both like love bites... he likes bites on the neck and shoulders and ears and i like ears shoulders neck and lips, lol he said hed take notes and look me up once he got over andrea. w00t! that probably doesnt mean a thing, but it was worth the thought. i think im crazy about him damn this sucks so bad... cause i have no chance and i heard it from him -- he does still like andrea. hopefully i can convince him how bad she treats him... god he deserves so much better. not that kevin doesnt too but like kevin knows when to leg go, and she hasnt done anything to him yet so i think itll be ok. we also joked about him tripping at the movies ... ken if youre reading this [and you dont tell me] it really was a cute trip im serious! and i didnt laugh until you turned around, if that helps any... lol =D but hes so hot, if any of you have seen him i know you know! i wish lizzi would get online, i misses her likes curzy... oh god im so sad im using sappy grammar... gah! lizzi i miss you doll get online we need to talk cause youre my only friend!! har har har [[ps jordan youre my favorite person i havent ever met, well garretts sweet but youre such a doll!]] so liz u must get online before this blog replaces you lol it could happen!! ok so i have a new obsession with a band called sparta. and maxeen. they sound new. i like vacant skies by sparta and strangers by maxeen. good shit yo. <333 i saw a video for another one of spartas songs, it was really goodl, and the guy has the cutest eyes, even if he was a bit fair for me [lmao kevin you know what kind of guys i go for!] wow ok i need to stop with the inside joke thingys... *schlap* heh... fun word. E and i cleaned out my closet today, it looks really spectacular, very clean. just how i like it. <3 and my room doesnt smell as bad as i bet kens ferret does anymore! bleh ferrets are so gross... if im ever in his room in flushing it. ugh, foul creatures. anyway, so i hadnt done laundry in so long that my room was starting to smell REALLY bad, like ma would leave my door and windows open. which really did a number on my already fucked up nerves what all with my fear of spiders and bears and burglars and serial killers and strangers in general. its really weirding me out how much i open up to ken, i mean we just met and already ive told him like everything about me. weird... im leaving for myrtle beach with E and the cousins tomorrow at like noon, its going to be pretty fun, we get to stay in some really nice rooms and like go to all these attractions around myrtle beach like broadway and the new mall [with my new credit card, w00t!] and iMAX theatres and just being with my cousins! =D dad just came in and bitched at me about my dysfunctional electronics -- like its my fuggin fault damn! so now i went from =D to =( and im going to finish cleaning my room and do some more laundry... leaving earlyish and im spending new years there, up until the second or first i think... wowie i misses my cuzzes! <333 im going to put some of the photos of my new rainboots and my iPod dock thing up soon, so um yeah just keep checking back i guess. *mwah* [edit at like 10:50ish] me and ken were just talking online and hes killing me. P aC p Et 8 7: YOU LIKE THE GOO GOO DOLLS TOO!!?!?!?! i M0SH 4 JESUS: yea!! P aC p Et 8 7: lol, u have to marry me now ... i M0SH 4 JESUS: omg 'southern girl' is sooo pretty -- i just wish it didnt have the part about swinging from tree to tree, monkeys scare me thats sort of a turn off i M0SH 4 JESUS: haha PaCpEt87: lol, i still think it's nice PaCpEt87: monkeys aren't sexy PaCpEt87: but still PaCpEt87: lol PaCpEt87: maybe he meant like Tarzan or soemthing PaCpEt87: better? ... i M0SH 4 JESUS: whats so scary? PaCpEt87: lol, we have a LOT in common! i M0SH 4 JESUS: ok cool i M0SH 4 JESUS: lol i M0SH 4 JESUS: *in-common points* i M0SH 4 JESUS: w00t PaCpEt87: *through the roof* i M0SH 4 JESUS: yeah haha ... i M0SH 4 JESUS: ugh come pack for me i dont feel like it PaCpEt87: alright, I'll pack all the sexy stuff PaCpEt87: or nothing at all i M0SH 4 JESUS: mk lol PaCpEt87: then you have to walk around naked i M0SH 4 JESUS: fine with me i M0SH 4 JESUS: oh boy! i M0SH 4 JESUS: rofl i M0SH 4 JESUS: thats what i do anyway PaCpEt87: where do you do this? i M0SH 4 JESUS: at my house i M0SH 4 JESUS: lol i M0SH 4 JESUS: all the time PaCpEt87: damn, I gotta come over yeah ok im going to die, this is fn torture. and he still loves andrea -- WTF?!