but already im wasting away...
nothing entirely spectacular happened today. i got horrid morning sickness and volmitted most of the morning away. i got beast shrek 2 for christmas and we opened it this morning and watched it while i was retching my guts out. i hadnt eaten since tuesday lunch, i dont feel the need to eat unless im at school really... so i went to the movies tuesday night and so i got back too late for dinner and then wednesday morning i got up and had hot chocolate forgetting all about being hungry then i went to the mall and went shopping with dad and he said wed get cool wraps or stop by pizza hut or something when we were done but we never did so i got home and had some water and cleaned my room and forgot about being hungry again and then i thought it was getting ridiculous having not eaten by wednesday night but i was about to go to the movies with ken and i was so nervous anyway that i couldnt eat, so i just left the bread on the counter and bea ate it. then this morning i got up and had a walk in the rain at like 7 cause i couldnt sleep, i was feeling really ill and i was like shaking and freezing and feeling nausiated so i got up and walked and then came back and went back to bed to try to sleep but i couldnt so i just lay there thinking about someone [im so horrid, i cant get him out of my head and i bet he hasnt thought of me since] so i got up at about 8:30 this morning and made myself an omlette for protein etc and then i threw it all up about an hour later. so i skipped lunch and only just had some mac and cheese for dinner. i hope i keep this down...
oma and opa drove up from florida today through the rain and got here around 6 i think. i was pissed too cause ken had just gotten online and i had to go make an appearance and by the time i got back he had left for work... which really sucks. i need to find out what time he gets back so i dont have to sit online for hours and i could just plan to be on when he gets back. god, im planning my fucking life around someone i went out with once. i need a reality bitch slap again... hes not interested i dont get why i keep this charade up. my mask is slipping i suppose.
E and Malcolm came too! that was really exciting... E is my favorite relative, even if she isnt really related to me. her real name is ethel and she married malcom, and malcom is my grandfather on ma's side. hes soooo funny and hes really crude it drives dad cRaZy. we [malcolm, beast, E, and i] were playing hangman on the way back from picking malcolm up from the airport, he flew in from the left coast, but he kept going:
malcolm: F?
bea: no f.
malcolm: U?
bea: nope
malcolm: C?
bea: malcolm! guess vowels!
malcolm: how about K?
E: malcolm,
malcom: yes dear?
E: no.
hahaha E and malcolm are about THE most unlikely couple i can think of. E is very refined and she works like crazy and has all this money that she throws around on traveling and grandkids and everything she owns in designer and malcolm doesnt really do anything, he smokes and drinks and hes working on something in california that none of us know about. good stuff. so right now bobbie [my mother's ma, malcolm's ex wife] is here from bar harbor, maine [my favourite place on earth] and oma and opa are here and E and malcolm are here and its going to be really noisy, bea has to be the center of attention but she gets it through screaming. i dont think screaming is appropriate unless its a heated debate or someone you love. i mean theres nobody id rather yell at than someone who i love or loves me. ahhhh, quality bonding. but beas useless screaching is the biggest pain in the arse.
im playing with scissors.
i think im going to get some pics and post them soon
ken better get on within the next hour, im dead bored. *yawn*
oma and opa drove up from florida today through the rain and got here around 6 i think. i was pissed too cause ken had just gotten online and i had to go make an appearance and by the time i got back he had left for work... which really sucks. i need to find out what time he gets back so i dont have to sit online for hours and i could just plan to be on when he gets back. god, im planning my fucking life around someone i went out with once. i need a reality bitch slap again... hes not interested i dont get why i keep this charade up. my mask is slipping i suppose.
E and Malcolm came too! that was really exciting... E is my favorite relative, even if she isnt really related to me. her real name is ethel and she married malcom, and malcom is my grandfather on ma's side. hes soooo funny and hes really crude it drives dad cRaZy. we [malcolm, beast, E, and i] were playing hangman on the way back from picking malcolm up from the airport, he flew in from the left coast, but he kept going:
malcolm: F?
bea: no f.
malcolm: U?
bea: nope
malcolm: C?
bea: malcolm! guess vowels!
malcolm: how about K?
E: malcolm,
malcom: yes dear?
E: no.
hahaha E and malcolm are about THE most unlikely couple i can think of. E is very refined and she works like crazy and has all this money that she throws around on traveling and grandkids and everything she owns in designer and malcolm doesnt really do anything, he smokes and drinks and hes working on something in california that none of us know about. good stuff. so right now bobbie [my mother's ma, malcolm's ex wife] is here from bar harbor, maine [my favourite place on earth] and oma and opa are here and E and malcolm are here and its going to be really noisy, bea has to be the center of attention but she gets it through screaming. i dont think screaming is appropriate unless its a heated debate or someone you love. i mean theres nobody id rather yell at than someone who i love or loves me. ahhhh, quality bonding. but beas useless screaching is the biggest pain in the arse.
im playing with scissors.
i think im going to get some pics and post them soon
ken better get on within the next hour, im dead bored. *yawn*