good times, good times
k..i'm gunna describe my night in detail for you all, now.
went to the mall to see my lover. <3 we hung out all day. i really hope she wasn't bored. because i sure as hell had an awesome time. <3<3<3<3 we met up with liz, later on. mir and liz got bras from victoria's secret. hahaha. miranda looks so sexy in her's. ^_^ i also got to talk to marissa for a while (i got her's and lauren's number...i'll probably take a trip out to wabasso to maybe spend the night, sometime).
it was when i left that everything went down hill. i got to josh's, and rita, corey, and dayna all followed. anyhoo...i went online, read a few journals that i shouldn't have, and found out some shit that i could have gone without finding out (atleast not from the journals...from the people themselves, YES). though i forgive both of them, as much as humanly possible. i love you josh, and i love you rita. you guys are awesome, and i'd never hate either of you. amanda...she's another story. she's been shit talking me just for the pure joy of it. as if she's NEVER done anything wrong. HAHAHAHAHAHAH hahahaha HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHahHhahahahaha!!!!! YEA OK!!!!! what the fuck ever. i'm gunna just drop that part of it, before i get pissed again.
anyway...i was trying my hardest not to go hang myself from a tree. instead i went to the main office, and tried to fall asleep on one of the benches. it was too uncomfortable, so i came back to josh's. found a few knives...carved up my body...not fun. i look like a thanksgiving turkey, right about now. and the knives were dull...which makes it a LOT worse. hehehehe. but...oh well. anyway...i had to force myself to stop, cause every time i'd leave the room that josh was in, i'd find another knive, do it some more, and cry hysterically again. so i told josh that i wasn't leaving the room, and i'd keep my mouth shut, if i could just stay with him, and stop fucking myself up. so he said ok. we ended up talking, and working shit out. it's all good. i just feel like a total fucking moron.
i wish i was as pretty as she is. i miss him saying i'm sexy. i really do...
anyway...guess i'm going to the mall, in a while. then hopefully to lauren's. i really wanna see her. really badly. <3<3<3<3<3
jee, thanks becca. you slept all fucking day, so i didn't even get to SEE you. ::cough::bitch::cough::. hahahaha.
k...i'm gunna go, now.
went to the mall to see my lover. <3 we hung out all day. i really hope she wasn't bored. because i sure as hell had an awesome time. <3<3<3<3 we met up with liz, later on. mir and liz got bras from victoria's secret. hahaha. miranda looks so sexy in her's. ^_^ i also got to talk to marissa for a while (i got her's and lauren's number...i'll probably take a trip out to wabasso to maybe spend the night, sometime).
it was when i left that everything went down hill. i got to josh's, and rita, corey, and dayna all followed. anyhoo...i went online, read a few journals that i shouldn't have, and found out some shit that i could have gone without finding out (atleast not from the journals...from the people themselves, YES). though i forgive both of them, as much as humanly possible. i love you josh, and i love you rita. you guys are awesome, and i'd never hate either of you. amanda...she's another story. she's been shit talking me just for the pure joy of it. as if she's NEVER done anything wrong. HAHAHAHAHAHAH hahahaha HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHahHhahahahaha!!!!! YEA OK!!!!! what the fuck ever. i'm gunna just drop that part of it, before i get pissed again.
anyway...i was trying my hardest not to go hang myself from a tree. instead i went to the main office, and tried to fall asleep on one of the benches. it was too uncomfortable, so i came back to josh's. found a few knives...carved up my body...not fun. i look like a thanksgiving turkey, right about now. and the knives were dull...which makes it a LOT worse. hehehehe. but...oh well. anyway...i had to force myself to stop, cause every time i'd leave the room that josh was in, i'd find another knive, do it some more, and cry hysterically again. so i told josh that i wasn't leaving the room, and i'd keep my mouth shut, if i could just stay with him, and stop fucking myself up. so he said ok. we ended up talking, and working shit out. it's all good. i just feel like a total fucking moron.
i wish i was as pretty as she is. i miss him saying i'm sexy. i really do...
anyway...guess i'm going to the mall, in a while. then hopefully to lauren's. i really wanna see her. really badly. <3<3<3<3<3
jee, thanks becca. you slept all fucking day, so i didn't even get to SEE you. ::cough::bitch::cough::. hahahaha.
k...i'm gunna go, now.