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So it's been awhile...nothign good at all has happened...wow positve start.The only thing that was funny was me bitching at Ashley yesterday....oh wow.Funny shit.Me and Elli hung out and she is over again.I'm going to Maine this weekend then Cali next.
The other night I don't think I have cried as hard in my life.Things have been shitty for me lately.I've been really confused to.Lowrie hurt me and I can't fucking stand it.Without any fucking reason he left.Fuck you too!Thankx for pretending you fucking cared about me!Thankx for making me open up and then become crushed after you left!Thankx for fucking killing me with your words!FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!
I wrote a poem...This goes out to Lowrie...
You used to know me from the inside out
Our love was fired ,but where did this love go?
Did it just fade away?
I can't forget the memories
and the way you made me break my own skin
I'm praying to Jesus to let me forget your face
but it seems he doesn't hear me either
My eyes burn from wasted tears
Everynight spent wondering what ifs
I wish I could say fuck it all
Be a mechanical killing machine
Can't stand to hate
Can't stand to stay alive
to see my fate
Does this surprise you sweetheart?
All these emotions for you?
Don't be afraid honey
All the happy ones died
the day you left me for dead
I'm starting to realize
if this is how my whole life is going to be
I won't last long
I'm just going to fade in the face of humanity
This is my wishful thinking
This is our last kiss goodbye.
The other night I don't think I have cried as hard in my life.Things have been shitty for me lately.I've been really confused to.Lowrie hurt me and I can't fucking stand it.Without any fucking reason he left.Fuck you too!Thankx for pretending you fucking cared about me!Thankx for making me open up and then become crushed after you left!Thankx for fucking killing me with your words!FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!
I wrote a poem...This goes out to Lowrie...
You used to know me from the inside out
Our love was fired ,but where did this love go?
Did it just fade away?
I can't forget the memories
and the way you made me break my own skin
I'm praying to Jesus to let me forget your face
but it seems he doesn't hear me either
My eyes burn from wasted tears
Everynight spent wondering what ifs
I wish I could say fuck it all
Be a mechanical killing machine
Can't stand to hate
Can't stand to stay alive
to see my fate
Does this surprise you sweetheart?
All these emotions for you?
Don't be afraid honey
All the happy ones died
the day you left me for dead
I'm starting to realize
if this is how my whole life is going to be
I won't last long
I'm just going to fade in the face of humanity
This is my wishful thinking
This is our last kiss goodbye.