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If something is still driving you crazy a year later and causing turmoil in current friendships... if that person somewhat left your life for many months except when you chose for her to return... but has returned to your physical space for a short time and is your supervisor... should you tell that person what kind of damage they caused?
She won't really understand, and she won't really care, she did it without knowing how much damage she really did. I didn't know how much damage she did either... until now. Will that make me feel better? Will that let me start to let it go? Or is it better left unsaid considering I have to work for her through June? We don't have to be friends to have a professional working relationship... that friendship will never be the same again anyways.
I guess I just don't know what kind of reaction I'll get... or what kind of reaction I really want. I just want to be able to let it go and not be so damn paranoid that everyone I get close to is going to drop me the way she did. I don't know if telling her will make a damn bit of difference. I guess I do want her to acknowledge that she did something really shitty... I could never make her understand that last year.
I just don't know if it's worth bringing it all up.
Help?
She won't really understand, and she won't really care, she did it without knowing how much damage she really did. I didn't know how much damage she did either... until now. Will that make me feel better? Will that let me start to let it go? Or is it better left unsaid considering I have to work for her through June? We don't have to be friends to have a professional working relationship... that friendship will never be the same again anyways.
I guess I just don't know what kind of reaction I'll get... or what kind of reaction I really want. I just want to be able to let it go and not be so damn paranoid that everyone I get close to is going to drop me the way she did. I don't know if telling her will make a damn bit of difference. I guess I do want her to acknowledge that she did something really shitty... I could never make her understand that last year.
I just don't know if it's worth bringing it all up.
Help?