Sad and Sick
Ehh..I am very sick... Stayed home from school today.. I really need to get a car... I hate being around Joey and Jonathan.. They are SOOOOOO fucking dumb.. I hate it.. It makes me soo depressed.. I really want to move out.. The only place I could move to would be my dads.. I don't really get along with him but at least I wouldnt have to hide my fucking shit for privacy...I really can't stand it here.. I want OUT! I want a fucking place to live in.. Not a fucking pig sty... I hate this place..The only 2 things that make me happy now are CJ and Christmas.. I hate this place.. I wish my mom wasn't so depressed an sensitive about EVERYTHING.. If so.. She wouldnt have a heart attack everytime I told her how much I hate them.. ANd she wouldnt get affended everytime I told her I wanted to go live with dad.. And Joey and Jonathan wouldn't be little FUCKED UP RETARDS..Grr.. I never knew that accepting to live with them and do them a favor and babysit them EVERYDAY would cause me such heartache and sadness.. GRRRR I hate Joey..He's sooooooo immature... And to make it worse.. Jonathan's following in his lead.. I hope mom comes to her senses soon and realizes that both of them are INSANE.. They need to go back to their dads house.. I was 500 times happier with them there..It was bliss for me.. I loved it.. I can't stand this.. I sometimes wish Joey would die.. I know its horrible.. But nobody has to deal with him.. Like I do...NOBODY.. No one knows how I feel except mom and Lauren...And Lauren is barely here.. She has a car and a job to get her away.. lucky... I hate this place.. I miss CJ too.. I hope it doesn't snow so I can see him sunday.. well.. I hope it snows.. Then it melts away before sunday.. So we get off of school.. And I can see him.. Gosh.. :-\Hm.. I love him.. And wish I had a car to go see him... :-\ Meep!