Apprehension of a Test
I'm feeling restless.
I've been trying to sleep for the last hour and so with very little success. For the last week, I've been doing something rather novel with my time - actually doing some revisions during my study period (hence the reason my absence).
My M.C.A.T. is being held tomorrow and I really need some sleep. I don't want to fall asleep in the middle of the test. I haven't felt this anxious since I took my S.A.T.s, I remember being a nervous wreak before taking that test too. It's just that there's more to lose if I don't do too well, this one test will determine which medical school I could go to. How is it fair in making one standardised test in determining one's future? Granted, I could retake the test twice more if for some reason I don't do too well on it, but it is looked down upon and I would like to do it in one go.
Christina, my roommate, who's heading to Harvard Medical this autumn, tells me that I would do fine, considering she took her M.C.A.T.s last year. She is confident in my abilities and knows how much I studied and how long I poured over the material. *sigh* I just wish that I was that confident.
Wish me luck tomorrow! I feel like I'd need a boatload of it!