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Ever wish like you could walk through a doorway and instantly be brought back, temporarily to another time? Maybe to when you were about 4 or so to some memorable moment with your mom before things changed. Or, maybe just to be around someone you once cared about for a long time that has since ceased to be around. yeah, maybe this is the weird feeling I've been feeling. In some ways I am in the past, I'm the best of people from high school (except two) and having a blast living out fantasies and joking about the same lame shit we did before we grew into our features. People always regret things in the past. I sometimes wonder why that is and in the next breath think about the things I'd change. I miss some of my friends. I miss the way Tony was always there for me to make me smile and his shoulder was always open to my sob stories. Or even waking up in bed with him bouncing next to me. That wasn't very long ago but it seems like an eternity. Anton and I will always be binded no matter what, even though it's in no romantic way. I miss the way my dear Brenda ended her sentiments in the form of a question. It always gave her such an innocence that you couldn't help but smile. I miss my mom. We were so close and went through everything. It's hard to let go of the past and realize it was all merely a dream of sorts. All that exists of it are memories. So if we forget did it never happen? I hope not.
So this is what's up with me. I'm being far too nostalgic for my own good. I miss the way things were and I dread what some things may become. Funny the way the past does come back to haunt you.
So this is what's up with me. I'm being far too nostalgic for my own good. I miss the way things were and I dread what some things may become. Funny the way the past does come back to haunt you.