hiiiii...again!
wow its been such a long time since i wrote something here.its all tumblr's fault ,i found some awesome blogs there to read and using tumblr's was easier than live journal.
but now im in ROME!!!!
can you believe it????i came here to study archaeology.
to be honest i just came here because i wanted to experience some thing different and visit Europe seriously it is still my main goal.
i discovered something about myself...I'm not really a person to work with others ,i like to work from home,i don't know any job that can be done from my house, i don't know how can someone find a job like that!!
i had a job and i was miserable,i didn't feel good about it, i wasn't happy or productive,so when i came to some money and one of my friends told me about how i could get in one of the Italian's university i decided to make a decision mainly it was because i wanted a way to get out of my job and i couldn't find another way!!
the worst part is i KNOW that i have all these amazing chances and opportunity but I'm throwing them all away,I KNOW THAT,but these are not my decision or i want a chance to make a mistake and learn from it!what i want is a quite life with no chaos ,just a normal every day life.
what i really want from my life is to stay in Italy for 2 months then go to Paris,Madrid and Berlin and maybe Switzerland then go back to iran and live there.AND I want to find out more about the process of adoption .
i only know that single women can adopt if they are over 30 so i have to search more because i really really wanna have a baby...
didn't i say that im asexual???????
i have money in bank,its not like a lot ,but its way more than my last salary and i could live with that money for a long time.
if i don't get scholarship i will seriously consider going back because I'm not gonna spend all of my money on rent,and finding a job in another country is hard enough when you still don't know the language,and I'm not gonna stay here after i finish my studies to work in a low paid job just because i want to live in Italy!!
im tired of pretending to be happy but i dont have the courage to tell others.
i will try to keep up with my journal now .i missed it.
but now im in ROME!!!!
can you believe it????i came here to study archaeology.
to be honest i just came here because i wanted to experience some thing different and visit Europe seriously it is still my main goal.
i discovered something about myself...I'm not really a person to work with others ,i like to work from home,i don't know any job that can be done from my house, i don't know how can someone find a job like that!!
i had a job and i was miserable,i didn't feel good about it, i wasn't happy or productive,so when i came to some money and one of my friends told me about how i could get in one of the Italian's university i decided to make a decision mainly it was because i wanted a way to get out of my job and i couldn't find another way!!
the worst part is i KNOW that i have all these amazing chances and opportunity but I'm throwing them all away,I KNOW THAT,but these are not my decision or i want a chance to make a mistake and learn from it!what i want is a quite life with no chaos ,just a normal every day life.
what i really want from my life is to stay in Italy for 2 months then go to Paris,Madrid and Berlin and maybe Switzerland then go back to iran and live there.AND I want to find out more about the process of adoption .
i only know that single women can adopt if they are over 30 so i have to search more because i really really wanna have a baby...
didn't i say that im asexual???????
i have money in bank,its not like a lot ,but its way more than my last salary and i could live with that money for a long time.
if i don't get scholarship i will seriously consider going back because I'm not gonna spend all of my money on rent,and finding a job in another country is hard enough when you still don't know the language,and I'm not gonna stay here after i finish my studies to work in a low paid job just because i want to live in Italy!!
im tired of pretending to be happy but i dont have the courage to tell others.
i will try to keep up with my journal now .i missed it.