How to not love someone?
How can I stop loving him?
I'm sick of wanting more, I'm sick of sitting here waiting to see if he is going to call me.
Today I was going to walk the dogs before he got home and had hoped that since Briley is a parents night out that maybe Geoff and I could have a beer or watch a movie.
I knew he was going on a float tomorrow and staying the night so I figured we could hang out tonight.
He went out with people from work and then text me to say I could come hang out while they were getting ready, I don't want to go hang out with him and his friend while they are getting ready for a trip that he would never take me on.
I just need to give up, I seriously need to just get the fuck over it already, how can I still be holding on to someone who clearly doesn't have the capacity to love me the way that I deserve.
I love him, I wish I didn't but I do.
I'm still his girlfriend but he is not my boyfriend.
I officially suck at life right now.
I really thought that he would realize that he loved me and didn't want to be without my by now.
I keep telling myself to make it through the semester, then till Bonnaroo, then till July which is Geoff's birthday, then he will know about Chicago and I can hold on till September, but then what? What if he still doesn't want more than to be friends? What the fuck am I supposed to do? I don't want to let him go.
I'm sick of wanting more, I'm sick of sitting here waiting to see if he is going to call me.
Today I was going to walk the dogs before he got home and had hoped that since Briley is a parents night out that maybe Geoff and I could have a beer or watch a movie.
I knew he was going on a float tomorrow and staying the night so I figured we could hang out tonight.
He went out with people from work and then text me to say I could come hang out while they were getting ready, I don't want to go hang out with him and his friend while they are getting ready for a trip that he would never take me on.
I just need to give up, I seriously need to just get the fuck over it already, how can I still be holding on to someone who clearly doesn't have the capacity to love me the way that I deserve.
I love him, I wish I didn't but I do.
I'm still his girlfriend but he is not my boyfriend.
I officially suck at life right now.
I really thought that he would realize that he loved me and didn't want to be without my by now.
I keep telling myself to make it through the semester, then till Bonnaroo, then till July which is Geoff's birthday, then he will know about Chicago and I can hold on till September, but then what? What if he still doesn't want more than to be friends? What the fuck am I supposed to do? I don't want to let him go.