the mid-term is over!!!!!
so the hell known as the mid-term is over now. and because of it i think i might start drinking again. there is nothing like coming home with blood shot eyes and not because of parting and drinking but because from the longest ass day of my life. i just fuckn hate everything right now. maybe it might be best if i do leave i really think nothing the only person who would miss me would be my mom but she knows that she can come and see me. jess knows that she can come and see me too. i just know that i need to get away and if i can get this job that would be great too. i know that i would come back up to finish the semister. i know alot of people think i should finish and get my bacholar up here then do it but if i can start my dream job now why the hell not maybe this was ment to happen now. as for HIM i know he doesnt care what happens to me one way or another. he read too much of what was going on between us. maybe he is hiding something. who knows. well, i need to relax and try to keep it together for at least another week. til then.....LATER