2Week Internet Fast
One of the Christianfurs I watch, Nameria of FA, is leaving the furry fandom. http://sfw.furaffinity.net/journal/5432813/
Her reasons are spiritual and she is one of the furs that I hold as my beacon back to who I was before being a fan of furry.
I never wanted to leave. I don't want to leave the furry fandom. Despite that, Nameria is leaving and I wonder if I should be leaving too. I don't want to leave Furaffinity for good either, but God has provided some issues through FA as an oportunity for me to reassess my life in the fandom. I thought I would be able to do that myself and for two weeks, I stayed off the net like a good boy... I can never seem to stay away for long though.. and that is why God had to intervene.
This is the second time that furrydrama has been so bad that I did a reassessment. The first case was a real life issue within my local furry group. Same scenario: I was supposed to do things that I never ended up doing alone and God intervened.
I have said that I am not leaving FA.... I don't know if this means that I'll have to break my word. Though compared to a relationship with God, I find promises all very dismissable if to grow closer to Him... though I'm sure He knows a better way. There are four possible outcomes for me: 1. I come back and slowly move to Weasyl. 2. I empty out my furry life and come back once every blue moon 3. I don't come back 4. I abandon my strength as usual and fail to do anything.
I will always be a kid at heart, and to that end, rather furry. The road ahead of me is a confusing one, I've been in the fandom for a decade, rarely doubting that I belonged here. I don't want to leave, but I have to try if only to defy the will that keeps me from doing it.
I am not Jonah yet, but I will be soon if I don't act now to save my relationship with Christ.
Nameria said that her time in the fandom caused her to doubt her faith and I find that it is the same with me this week. This week, I felt the dreadful emptiness of a man with no faith and I couldn't stand myself. Sometimes I just wish for death so I can be through with this torment of going back and forth with my flesh making war against my spirit so that I do not do what I want.
To my friends: if you value my success, please shoo me off if you see me online...at least for two weeks.
To my closer friends: I need practical guidance to help me phase out of the furry fandom.
Sincerely, your brother in Christ, BJ
Her reasons are spiritual and she is one of the furs that I hold as my beacon back to who I was before being a fan of furry.
I never wanted to leave. I don't want to leave the furry fandom. Despite that, Nameria is leaving and I wonder if I should be leaving too. I don't want to leave Furaffinity for good either, but God has provided some issues through FA as an oportunity for me to reassess my life in the fandom. I thought I would be able to do that myself and for two weeks, I stayed off the net like a good boy... I can never seem to stay away for long though.. and that is why God had to intervene.
This is the second time that furrydrama has been so bad that I did a reassessment. The first case was a real life issue within my local furry group. Same scenario: I was supposed to do things that I never ended up doing alone and God intervened.
I have said that I am not leaving FA.... I don't know if this means that I'll have to break my word. Though compared to a relationship with God, I find promises all very dismissable if to grow closer to Him... though I'm sure He knows a better way. There are four possible outcomes for me: 1. I come back and slowly move to Weasyl. 2. I empty out my furry life and come back once every blue moon 3. I don't come back 4. I abandon my strength as usual and fail to do anything.
I will always be a kid at heart, and to that end, rather furry. The road ahead of me is a confusing one, I've been in the fandom for a decade, rarely doubting that I belonged here. I don't want to leave, but I have to try if only to defy the will that keeps me from doing it.
I am not Jonah yet, but I will be soon if I don't act now to save my relationship with Christ.
Nameria said that her time in the fandom caused her to doubt her faith and I find that it is the same with me this week. This week, I felt the dreadful emptiness of a man with no faith and I couldn't stand myself. Sometimes I just wish for death so I can be through with this torment of going back and forth with my flesh making war against my spirit so that I do not do what I want.
To my friends: if you value my success, please shoo me off if you see me online...at least for two weeks.
To my closer friends: I need practical guidance to help me phase out of the furry fandom.
Sincerely, your brother in Christ, BJ