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It seems that every time Alexa and I rent a movie its a downer. First up is Sophie's Choice which is about a Polish woman in a concentration camp who's forced to choose btwn saving her son or her daughter. I don't think I've heard or seen anything as disturbing as the little girls screams as they toar her from Merryl Streeps arms. I felt so helpless I wanted to die or kill or do something to satisfy the well of empathy and betrayal. That made me have a break down in the bathroom until it was time for the gory/demented/incomprehensible japanese horror movie.
Life is such a bitch. I feel like I'm constantly improving myself but I can never live up to my own standards. I feel so indecisive and bogged down. I really feel like this year is going to be good though. I can feel change riding in on the waxing moon (if the moon is waxing, I'm such a good aspiring cosmanaut). Everything is so uncertain. What if I just fall into old patterns. What does it all really mater anyway. I feel so angsty. End stream of consciousness.
Life is such a bitch. I feel like I'm constantly improving myself but I can never live up to my own standards. I feel so indecisive and bogged down. I really feel like this year is going to be good though. I can feel change riding in on the waxing moon (if the moon is waxing, I'm such a good aspiring cosmanaut). Everything is so uncertain. What if I just fall into old patterns. What does it all really mater anyway. I feel so angsty. End stream of consciousness.