Rainy day calls for rainy emotions
Eh, im doing good. actually better than i have been. My mood is up a little bit, but i still miss a certain someone no matter how much of a dick he was to me. I keep telling myself to knock it off and it would be ok, but ya know sometimes you just have a strong conviction on something and do not want to let it go. I feel like i have that right now. As much as i am trying to move on myself.....it jsut isnt working. I hope he misses me, i hope he calls and apologizes because I DESERVE one. I hope when he listens and watches movies he misses being held, or holding onto someone. I know he doesnt have anyone, i think he has been asking about me cuz phil is hinting at it. But i keep telling myself to move on.
Ya there are guys that are really cute here, and im having alot of fun and not thinking about him for the most part, but he is still mine to me. I think and worry. Just like i think and worry about everyone else.
And i miss karen, and am really worried about her being so damn far away. BUt she will be fine and i know it. Im just an emotional trainwreck inside- like normal and i dont want to go off on anyone cuz i dont want to put it on their shoulders to take care of me. I think Theo out it best last week on the phone, im gonna have to put my pride aside and start asking for help, even if i CAN do it on my own. Cuz a lil help takes a lil stress off of myself. I jsut feel bad cuz no one needs to help carry me on my way. I know its my pride, but we fought for ten mins about money, and how i needed to ask for it. He says i dont have to pay it back if i ask, but i feel bad. If its alot, or a little i will pay it back....i jsut want it back as soon as i can ya know. and i know he wont take it until he knows im ok on my fund situation..id have to sneak it back to him somehow- like send it in an blank envelope with no return address...
i dont know, im just in a mood lately i cant shake.
I want to, but i dont have the energy it seems.
So im just gonna go on and deal until it seems to be concrete on how i have to go about things...
ya know what would make everything better tho?? If theo would have just dated me, i think this is still a root of the problem at hand for myself. cuz i miss him too.... damn i think im too complicated for myself....or is it so simple i make is complicated?
Keith Urban - I Wanna Be Your Everything Lyrics
The first time I looked in your eyes I knew
That I would do anything for you
The first time you touched my face I felt
What I'd never felt with anyone else
I wanna give back what you've given to me
And I want to witness all of your dreams
Now that you've shown me who I really am
I wanna be more than just a man
CHORUS:
I wanna be the wind that fills your cells
And be the hand that lifts your veil
And be the moon that moves your tide
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheel that never rusts
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more
I wanna be your everything
When you wake up
I'll be the first thing you see
And when it gets dark you can reach out to me
I'll cherish your words
And I'll finish your thoughts
And I'll be your compass baby, when you get lost
CHORUS
I'll be the wheel that never rusts
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more
I wanna be your everything (x3)
Ya there are guys that are really cute here, and im having alot of fun and not thinking about him for the most part, but he is still mine to me. I think and worry. Just like i think and worry about everyone else.
And i miss karen, and am really worried about her being so damn far away. BUt she will be fine and i know it. Im just an emotional trainwreck inside- like normal and i dont want to go off on anyone cuz i dont want to put it on their shoulders to take care of me. I think Theo out it best last week on the phone, im gonna have to put my pride aside and start asking for help, even if i CAN do it on my own. Cuz a lil help takes a lil stress off of myself. I jsut feel bad cuz no one needs to help carry me on my way. I know its my pride, but we fought for ten mins about money, and how i needed to ask for it. He says i dont have to pay it back if i ask, but i feel bad. If its alot, or a little i will pay it back....i jsut want it back as soon as i can ya know. and i know he wont take it until he knows im ok on my fund situation..id have to sneak it back to him somehow- like send it in an blank envelope with no return address...
i dont know, im just in a mood lately i cant shake.
I want to, but i dont have the energy it seems.
So im just gonna go on and deal until it seems to be concrete on how i have to go about things...
ya know what would make everything better tho?? If theo would have just dated me, i think this is still a root of the problem at hand for myself. cuz i miss him too.... damn i think im too complicated for myself....or is it so simple i make is complicated?
Keith Urban - I Wanna Be Your Everything Lyrics
The first time I looked in your eyes I knew
That I would do anything for you
The first time you touched my face I felt
What I'd never felt with anyone else
I wanna give back what you've given to me
And I want to witness all of your dreams
Now that you've shown me who I really am
I wanna be more than just a man
CHORUS:
I wanna be the wind that fills your cells
And be the hand that lifts your veil
And be the moon that moves your tide
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheel that never rusts
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more
I wanna be your everything
When you wake up
I'll be the first thing you see
And when it gets dark you can reach out to me
I'll cherish your words
And I'll finish your thoughts
And I'll be your compass baby, when you get lost
CHORUS
I'll be the wheel that never rusts
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more
I wanna be your everything (x3)