the talk
so i finally got a chance to clear things up w/ donny today.
it started off by me going into cpk to show laura her pics, i knew that he would be there so thats another reason i wanted to go in. i needed to just get it over w/ and talk to him.
So yeah i wanted to ask him but josh was right there the whole time and like he'd leave and we'd be in a convo and then josh would show back up agian. FINALLY we got ove into the pit by ourself and he was like "um, hey" and hten he looked away w/ that look like what the hell am i going to say. and just looked at him and was like "i talked to donna" and he was like "yeah so she prolly told you but i just wanted to tell you myself" and i was like "no i know i just want to hang out with you" and he was like "yeah i'm just not interested in starting anything right now w/ me leaving and i just dont want anything to get messy and so i mean i just dont like you like that right now" and i was like "no no i understand, i know that you're leaving. i' dont know why everyone is obsessed w/ us" and he was like "prolly cause their just bored" i was like yeah . he was like "i dont know i just wanted to tell you in person that i'm just not up for any boyfriend girlfriend stuff right now. i havnt even kissed anyone, unless i'm really drunk like i was on new years" and i was like "hahha it's okay i understand" and he was like "i'm just so embarassed" and i was like "why? you dont have to be" and he was like "well just cause i dont want to get involved w/ anything and i just dont know" and i was like "dont worry about it."
so yeah we finally got to talk w/ eachother and it was alot of him stubbling over what he wanted to say.
so i mean at least he let me know that hey yeah your nice but i dont want to get us involved becasue theirs going to be drama soon. and as least he let me know that he doesnt kiss anyone else. so i mean i sort of know now that he wouldnt hook up w/ jillian or patty either if he's not interested in me. I was talking to Laura (from cpk) about it tonight and she was like , "we just wanted to see you guys together sooo much cause you too are too cute for eachother. that's why we're all obsessed!"
well isnt that great! hahah the one guy i dig at work and he digs me leaves for the military in a month. ugh he's so nerdy and cute too! like we were talking about lighting and shit before when i first got there. he was pretty impressed w/ my mad lighting skills! As i am w/ his!
but yeah, so that's the latest.
i dont know. basically i know nothing will happen. but at least he knows that i just want to hang w/ him.
alright well it's 3 and i need sleep cause i havnt been sleeping these past few nights. Actually i've been sleeping VERY lightly and i kept having donny dreams. Last night i actually had a zdenko dream, which was really weird and i have no clue what provoked that but basically we were just getting back together and we were in a car w/ laura (appleton) and nick and we were all going somewhere. and i remember there being alot of tension because we wanted to make out but all these ppl were all around us. yeah weird, like i said i have NO CLUE what provoked that. but yeah.
alright bed time.
it started off by me going into cpk to show laura her pics, i knew that he would be there so thats another reason i wanted to go in. i needed to just get it over w/ and talk to him.
So yeah i wanted to ask him but josh was right there the whole time and like he'd leave and we'd be in a convo and then josh would show back up agian. FINALLY we got ove into the pit by ourself and he was like "um, hey" and hten he looked away w/ that look like what the hell am i going to say. and just looked at him and was like "i talked to donna" and he was like "yeah so she prolly told you but i just wanted to tell you myself" and i was like "no i know i just want to hang out with you" and he was like "yeah i'm just not interested in starting anything right now w/ me leaving and i just dont want anything to get messy and so i mean i just dont like you like that right now" and i was like "no no i understand, i know that you're leaving. i' dont know why everyone is obsessed w/ us" and he was like "prolly cause their just bored" i was like yeah . he was like "i dont know i just wanted to tell you in person that i'm just not up for any boyfriend girlfriend stuff right now. i havnt even kissed anyone, unless i'm really drunk like i was on new years" and i was like "hahha it's okay i understand" and he was like "i'm just so embarassed" and i was like "why? you dont have to be" and he was like "well just cause i dont want to get involved w/ anything and i just dont know" and i was like "dont worry about it."
so yeah we finally got to talk w/ eachother and it was alot of him stubbling over what he wanted to say.
so i mean at least he let me know that hey yeah your nice but i dont want to get us involved becasue theirs going to be drama soon. and as least he let me know that he doesnt kiss anyone else. so i mean i sort of know now that he wouldnt hook up w/ jillian or patty either if he's not interested in me. I was talking to Laura (from cpk) about it tonight and she was like , "we just wanted to see you guys together sooo much cause you too are too cute for eachother. that's why we're all obsessed!"
well isnt that great! hahah the one guy i dig at work and he digs me leaves for the military in a month. ugh he's so nerdy and cute too! like we were talking about lighting and shit before when i first got there. he was pretty impressed w/ my mad lighting skills! As i am w/ his!
but yeah, so that's the latest.
i dont know. basically i know nothing will happen. but at least he knows that i just want to hang w/ him.
alright well it's 3 and i need sleep cause i havnt been sleeping these past few nights. Actually i've been sleeping VERY lightly and i kept having donny dreams. Last night i actually had a zdenko dream, which was really weird and i have no clue what provoked that but basically we were just getting back together and we were in a car w/ laura (appleton) and nick and we were all going somewhere. and i remember there being alot of tension because we wanted to make out but all these ppl were all around us. yeah weird, like i said i have NO CLUE what provoked that. but yeah.
alright bed time.