LNIHAD: Last Night I Had A Dream
Last night I had a dream. Dream Dream Dream
It was a flashback from ...an alternate lifetime where I had grown up in downtown Los Angeles and spent my days hanging out in a mall while girls crushed on me... I've seen this life in a dream before, only this time the world didn't get destroyed. More on that later.
I more or less lived in a mall in downtown LA with my old friend Chris Z who also grew up on an alternate timeline, and also around every day in the mall was that one shy girl I always liked but never had the courage to tell her. She was in the dream, it was nice.
I dreamt of daily life in the alternate me's world, which consists mainly of going about solving mysteries in the mall with C.Z. Our dads both did the same thing for a living, so occasionally we would do a chemistry experiment or something and learn something about our dads' jobs because we plan to have our dads' jobs in the future. Evidently my dreams are not very creative.
The most interesting part of the dream however was the girl. See every time there was a mystery and we solved it, everyone was represented as from a different period of my life, like a time lapse. As we solved one mystery after another everyone got older. This is what made it interesting.
The beginning part I remember was of solving a mystery in the Mall. I don't remember the details but the mystery was either Why Is That Cute Shy Girl Looking At Me Like That or Why Am I In The Food Court Of The Mall. You see, the shy girl would always look me in the eyes in a way that made me crazy but I never had the courage to go up and talk to her. Everything was fine with that though, because we were young enough that it was okay to wait.
Later in the dream I was "introduced" to CZ. He always seems to be telling a good story. The girl is older, and prettier, and looks at me even better. I'm starting to look at her back that way, because I want to let her know. Even in the dream the best I can probably manage is a deer-in-the-headlights look before I realize it and can return the lovely favor her eyes have sent me. But that's okay, because we don't tend to look away from each other, and her eyes are wonderful.
Later in the dream there was a chemistry experiment or something that seemed like one. It was in a room that was like a science classroom in a school, only it was a building in a mall. The mystery there might have been Why Is There A Public Chemistry Room In A Mall and the answer was Science. Occasionally I'd catch a glimpse of that girl, who was giving me real serious looks. I can't help but notice she is looking older, better sure, but also a little tired and frustrated, and she looks that way when she's staring at me, and I'm thinking maybe I've been letting on too long without saying something to her.
Then there was the mystery of What Is The Client Having For Lunch. You see, CZ was telling me this great story about this guy (who happened to be his dad's client) that got him into a lot of trouble around town. As he told me this we were standing across the the food court watching him have lunch with CZ's dad. After he finishes the story, CZ and I both realize at the exact same moment that we need to find out what kind of shit this dude eats for lunch. CZ says, "YES. I KNOW."
We start walking over to where he is sitting, at the other side of a crowd. I get halfway to him and out of nowhere there's the girl, older than before and looking incredible. I had been walking straight at her without seeing her, and now I'm walked right up to her, and she's looking serious, and curious about why I walked up to her, and damn it if I didn't see a little excitement in those eyes.
On account of me walking very determinedly up to this girl and the stunning intensity of the moment, there are people around watching, something that usually matters to girls. So I've got to say something, but I'm frozen because I was really just on my way to look at some guy's lunch. And our eyes are locked into eachother.
Lightning strikes somewhere in the room. All the people are going into slow motion, and their sounds are fading away. She and I are just standing there, looking at each other. The world slows to a frozen stop and is silent. Everything around except her and I transforms to a shimmering gold. I'm still looking at her, and I have to say something. I open my mouth to speak.
Everything goes back to normal and people start moving around us again. I'm still standing there, mouth open. No time seems to have passed. I shoot the first thing on my mind out of my mouth at the girl.
"Oh, Hi. I Didn't See You There... ... ...HowIsItGoing"
She looks disappointed. Her gaze falls, and the serious look is gone like it was never there. Her face flashes with the realization that I was never a real contender, that all the looks were just daydreams, that I wasn't to be taken seriously. She looks crestfallen. I'm standing there, looking at her and seeing all this, and my heart is a solid rock.
She replies... something and walks off. I just stand there. The guy who was having lunch is gone. I think I see some pineapple on his plate. CZ is over at the food place. I go to join him.
We engage in casual conversation as we get our food.
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I just remembered something. A long, long time ago I used to have a livejournal-like bloglike journal thing that I kept online for this girl, and I was really proud of it. It was from this one good summer I had, an unusually good one, and a strange one. I would post the most nonsensical shit in it, almost totally random shit, but filled with the thoughts and emotions I was having. It was like a slice of that age and that time. The name of the hosting service and the journal are long lost to me, and I wonder if that is a bad thing.
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Anyway, back to the dream.
Oh yeah, we just got some food. We got this food so we're like walking toward this food room area. We're just like chatting walking in there when I pass right next to the girl and we look at each other. The look on her face is different. She looks wary, concerned and intrigued; young and human. Even though she is older and more mature her face shows a cautious innocence that I remembered from her looks when we were younger. I'm thinking I need to say something.
Nobody is watching us and she's not expecting me to say something like I just walked up to her, we were just passing. I'm not going to just spew some shit out because I have to, I'm going to say something to her out of my own will to do so. It'll be right.
But everything wasn't frozen, or shimmering. As I had been thinking all this, she had been standing there, waiting for me to say something. Time had been flying past. Her look gets deeper, her eyes fill with intensity, and she starts to look away.
And I woke up
I know, right? Short dream. I got like NO sleep last night.
It was a flashback from ...an alternate lifetime where I had grown up in downtown Los Angeles and spent my days hanging out in a mall while girls crushed on me... I've seen this life in a dream before, only this time the world didn't get destroyed. More on that later.
I more or less lived in a mall in downtown LA with my old friend Chris Z who also grew up on an alternate timeline, and also around every day in the mall was that one shy girl I always liked but never had the courage to tell her. She was in the dream, it was nice.
I dreamt of daily life in the alternate me's world, which consists mainly of going about solving mysteries in the mall with C.Z. Our dads both did the same thing for a living, so occasionally we would do a chemistry experiment or something and learn something about our dads' jobs because we plan to have our dads' jobs in the future. Evidently my dreams are not very creative.
The most interesting part of the dream however was the girl. See every time there was a mystery and we solved it, everyone was represented as from a different period of my life, like a time lapse. As we solved one mystery after another everyone got older. This is what made it interesting.
The beginning part I remember was of solving a mystery in the Mall. I don't remember the details but the mystery was either Why Is That Cute Shy Girl Looking At Me Like That or Why Am I In The Food Court Of The Mall. You see, the shy girl would always look me in the eyes in a way that made me crazy but I never had the courage to go up and talk to her. Everything was fine with that though, because we were young enough that it was okay to wait.
Later in the dream I was "introduced" to CZ. He always seems to be telling a good story. The girl is older, and prettier, and looks at me even better. I'm starting to look at her back that way, because I want to let her know. Even in the dream the best I can probably manage is a deer-in-the-headlights look before I realize it and can return the lovely favor her eyes have sent me. But that's okay, because we don't tend to look away from each other, and her eyes are wonderful.
Later in the dream there was a chemistry experiment or something that seemed like one. It was in a room that was like a science classroom in a school, only it was a building in a mall. The mystery there might have been Why Is There A Public Chemistry Room In A Mall and the answer was Science. Occasionally I'd catch a glimpse of that girl, who was giving me real serious looks. I can't help but notice she is looking older, better sure, but also a little tired and frustrated, and she looks that way when she's staring at me, and I'm thinking maybe I've been letting on too long without saying something to her.
Then there was the mystery of What Is The Client Having For Lunch. You see, CZ was telling me this great story about this guy (who happened to be his dad's client) that got him into a lot of trouble around town. As he told me this we were standing across the the food court watching him have lunch with CZ's dad. After he finishes the story, CZ and I both realize at the exact same moment that we need to find out what kind of shit this dude eats for lunch. CZ says, "YES. I KNOW."
We start walking over to where he is sitting, at the other side of a crowd. I get halfway to him and out of nowhere there's the girl, older than before and looking incredible. I had been walking straight at her without seeing her, and now I'm walked right up to her, and she's looking serious, and curious about why I walked up to her, and damn it if I didn't see a little excitement in those eyes.
On account of me walking very determinedly up to this girl and the stunning intensity of the moment, there are people around watching, something that usually matters to girls. So I've got to say something, but I'm frozen because I was really just on my way to look at some guy's lunch. And our eyes are locked into eachother.
Lightning strikes somewhere in the room. All the people are going into slow motion, and their sounds are fading away. She and I are just standing there, looking at each other. The world slows to a frozen stop and is silent. Everything around except her and I transforms to a shimmering gold. I'm still looking at her, and I have to say something. I open my mouth to speak.
Everything goes back to normal and people start moving around us again. I'm still standing there, mouth open. No time seems to have passed. I shoot the first thing on my mind out of my mouth at the girl.
"Oh, Hi. I Didn't See You There... ... ...HowIsItGoing"
She looks disappointed. Her gaze falls, and the serious look is gone like it was never there. Her face flashes with the realization that I was never a real contender, that all the looks were just daydreams, that I wasn't to be taken seriously. She looks crestfallen. I'm standing there, looking at her and seeing all this, and my heart is a solid rock.
She replies... something and walks off. I just stand there. The guy who was having lunch is gone. I think I see some pineapple on his plate. CZ is over at the food place. I go to join him.
We engage in casual conversation as we get our food.
-
I just remembered something. A long, long time ago I used to have a livejournal-like bloglike journal thing that I kept online for this girl, and I was really proud of it. It was from this one good summer I had, an unusually good one, and a strange one. I would post the most nonsensical shit in it, almost totally random shit, but filled with the thoughts and emotions I was having. It was like a slice of that age and that time. The name of the hosting service and the journal are long lost to me, and I wonder if that is a bad thing.
-
Anyway, back to the dream.
Oh yeah, we just got some food. We got this food so we're like walking toward this food room area. We're just like chatting walking in there when I pass right next to the girl and we look at each other. The look on her face is different. She looks wary, concerned and intrigued; young and human. Even though she is older and more mature her face shows a cautious innocence that I remembered from her looks when we were younger. I'm thinking I need to say something.
Nobody is watching us and she's not expecting me to say something like I just walked up to her, we were just passing. I'm not going to just spew some shit out because I have to, I'm going to say something to her out of my own will to do so. It'll be right.
But everything wasn't frozen, or shimmering. As I had been thinking all this, she had been standing there, waiting for me to say something. Time had been flying past. Her look gets deeper, her eyes fill with intensity, and she starts to look away.
And I woke up
I know, right? Short dream. I got like NO sleep last night.