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I really wish I hadn't made such a big deal about Valentine's day. Because I still really like her, and now I have no idea if we're going to be friends. I mean, granted; that sounds exactly like what I've been thinking since last year, but now I think she has good reason to dislike me.
I called the therapist lady and made an appointment for thursday. I don't think I would've done it if that fight hadn't happened. So if it works, and she can help me, and I get myself to the point where I never do anything like that again, well, that's a good silver lining. It's funny. I've changed my mind, it's not funny. It's dumb, but not funny. But I've been scared of therapy for a long time. I've had two very good friends that have gone to therapy. Afterwards neither wanted to be friends with me. I've always kinda felt that if I went I would lose my friendship with my Valentine; which is really the best thing I've had in my life for a long time. I guess I have no reason to be scared now. I do go to bed ridiculously early though. Like, 8. Tonight I may not even stay up that late. How much does that suck.
I did have a fun time out drinking though. And I introduced myself to some people. By people I mean mostly girls. I never do that. Granted I was three sheets at the time, but still. I mean, I did that. I realize that three sheets to the wind is a nautical term, I wonder how it got started.
I called the therapist lady and made an appointment for thursday. I don't think I would've done it if that fight hadn't happened. So if it works, and she can help me, and I get myself to the point where I never do anything like that again, well, that's a good silver lining. It's funny. I've changed my mind, it's not funny. It's dumb, but not funny. But I've been scared of therapy for a long time. I've had two very good friends that have gone to therapy. Afterwards neither wanted to be friends with me. I've always kinda felt that if I went I would lose my friendship with my Valentine; which is really the best thing I've had in my life for a long time. I guess I have no reason to be scared now. I do go to bed ridiculously early though. Like, 8. Tonight I may not even stay up that late. How much does that suck.
I did have a fun time out drinking though. And I introduced myself to some people. By people I mean mostly girls. I never do that. Granted I was three sheets at the time, but still. I mean, I did that. I realize that three sheets to the wind is a nautical term, I wonder how it got started.