Dear Ian - Year 5
Dear Ian,
Today marks 5 years since you left us.
Today has been creeping upon me for weeks. I feel my demeanor change. I tend to withdraw some and I don't even realize it. This year was probably worse than normal. I am in the process of moving. On Saturday, I move back to Madison proper. Don't get too excited - its on the East side. I know you were never a fan of the East side, but I have become quite fond of this side of town. The good news is that the Great Dane East is right across the street from me.
Coming across mementos we shared while packing is exceptionally hard being so close to...this anniversary.
I found this photo yesterday and got really emotional. This was at Irish Waters in July 2007, if I am to trust my notes on flickr.
I keep waiting to each year to hurt less. To not cry when I think about missing you. Seeing reminders of Loki is hard too. I miss her little mew. And the licks on my nose. She was an excellent snuggler. Please tell her hi for me, give her pets and hugs and snuggles for me. I am hopeful she found her way back to you after leaving me last year. The only kitty you weren't allergic to.
I still keep in touch with your mom. We try to get together as often as time allows. KB and I have been hanging out a lot more often too. In fact, my new apartment is going to be really close to the place that she and her husband are renting. She and I still have adventures and shenanigans from time to time. I am hoping to have many more the rest of this year.
SO...I move this Saturday. Last week I decided to do something with the Brewers tshirt I made you awhile back. You remember this shirt right?
It has Barrelman on the front. Anyway, after having it hang in my bedroom from the ceiling, literally since they gave it to me, I decided to do something special with it. I get it back on the 26th. I can't wait to share with with everyone. I am very excited to get it back.
There are still so many things, almost on a daily basis, that I wish I could share with you. Songs that remind me of you. Restaurants I wish I could take you to. Adventures I want to have with you.
Spending time with Al, Shooter, Matt B., Vinnie, Randy, Big John (and all the others I have met from your life)....it makes me feel like I still have a part of your life entwined with mine. I am thankful for all of those guys. They put up with me and I love them for it.
We all miss you. Shooter does a toast at his birthday party and always drops in a mention direct and indirect of you. It always make me tear up.
I, and so many other people from your life, wish you were still here.
I love you.
I miss you.
I hope you're at peace.
Love,
Meredith
Today marks 5 years since you left us.
Today has been creeping upon me for weeks. I feel my demeanor change. I tend to withdraw some and I don't even realize it. This year was probably worse than normal. I am in the process of moving. On Saturday, I move back to Madison proper. Don't get too excited - its on the East side. I know you were never a fan of the East side, but I have become quite fond of this side of town. The good news is that the Great Dane East is right across the street from me.
Coming across mementos we shared while packing is exceptionally hard being so close to...this anniversary.
I found this photo yesterday and got really emotional. This was at Irish Waters in July 2007, if I am to trust my notes on flickr.
I keep waiting to each year to hurt less. To not cry when I think about missing you. Seeing reminders of Loki is hard too. I miss her little mew. And the licks on my nose. She was an excellent snuggler. Please tell her hi for me, give her pets and hugs and snuggles for me. I am hopeful she found her way back to you after leaving me last year. The only kitty you weren't allergic to.
I still keep in touch with your mom. We try to get together as often as time allows. KB and I have been hanging out a lot more often too. In fact, my new apartment is going to be really close to the place that she and her husband are renting. She and I still have adventures and shenanigans from time to time. I am hoping to have many more the rest of this year.
SO...I move this Saturday. Last week I decided to do something with the Brewers tshirt I made you awhile back. You remember this shirt right?
It has Barrelman on the front. Anyway, after having it hang in my bedroom from the ceiling, literally since they gave it to me, I decided to do something special with it. I get it back on the 26th. I can't wait to share with with everyone. I am very excited to get it back.
There are still so many things, almost on a daily basis, that I wish I could share with you. Songs that remind me of you. Restaurants I wish I could take you to. Adventures I want to have with you.
Spending time with Al, Shooter, Matt B., Vinnie, Randy, Big John (and all the others I have met from your life)....it makes me feel like I still have a part of your life entwined with mine. I am thankful for all of those guys. They put up with me and I love them for it.
We all miss you. Shooter does a toast at his birthday party and always drops in a mention direct and indirect of you. It always make me tear up.
I, and so many other people from your life, wish you were still here.
I love you.
I miss you.
I hope you're at peace.
Love,
Meredith