Sigh
I found out yesterday that my grandmother has taken a turn and probably won't recover. Her heart however is fine. Its the rest of her that's going now. She's got edema, that they can;t find the source for... apparently malignant cells showing up in her urine... its just not good. She's stopped eating and drinking, and I think she's just plain done. She wants to come home (She's been in hospital for a few weeks now) She's 91 and she had a good life. She's done and she's ready to go. With that said,
I feel shallow in saying that I am hoping I can get my con trip in this weekend. Its going to be really hard when her time comes, and there are two major reasons why I want to get this con in. 1) Because she'd want me to. She's always saying, "Don't fuss over me." So my time I spent with her in Feb/march when she was in the hospital wth ehr heart surgery is comforting to me and I feel as though I've said everything I needed to say to her. So I'm not going to fuss over her, and I am going to go have fun. and 2) Again..this one is going to hurt, so I want to be able to go into it after having jsut had a fun weekend of laughing and relaxing and fannish squeeing. I'll need that buffer.
So for those who know me... and will see me this weekend. MAKE ME HAVE FUN!! Keep my mood up and let me enjoy myself. For my sake and for my grandmother.
With that said I love you Grandma Bee. You fought the good fight. Its time to rest now. {{hugs}}
I feel shallow in saying that I am hoping I can get my con trip in this weekend. Its going to be really hard when her time comes, and there are two major reasons why I want to get this con in. 1) Because she'd want me to. She's always saying, "Don't fuss over me." So my time I spent with her in Feb/march when she was in the hospital wth ehr heart surgery is comforting to me and I feel as though I've said everything I needed to say to her. So I'm not going to fuss over her, and I am going to go have fun. and 2) Again..this one is going to hurt, so I want to be able to go into it after having jsut had a fun weekend of laughing and relaxing and fannish squeeing. I'll need that buffer.
So for those who know me... and will see me this weekend. MAKE ME HAVE FUN!! Keep my mood up and let me enjoy myself. For my sake and for my grandmother.
With that said I love you Grandma Bee. You fought the good fight. Its time to rest now. {{hugs}}