final entry. new lj: identity7crisis, comment to be added
its great to see the ones who stand by you, that love you no matter what, and forgive you when you truly say that you're sorry.
i hope those people i have offended beyond belief will permit me to make a public apology over my LJ and in person. i am leaving it as a public entry(sorry).
misie: you have always been by my side, even though i often pushed you away. i enjoyed our random talks and good times in hackney's band. i do remember all the times that youve said that i should get help, and how i didnt want any. its true. i dont feel that people truly know whats going on in my life, so i push them away and make stupid cries for attention. i admire that you have been a wicked good friend for the past 2.5 years. i am thankful for that. i am sorry for pushing you away.
nicole: i still dont see how you stood by me last year, you knew what happened and acknowledged it, i just feel that it was more out of pity (for lack of a better word). i know that you do care, but i constantly feel left out and a tag along whenever im around you; i always feel out of place. i am NOT trying to make you feel guilty, i am just trying to express my feelings. i hope you forgive me for my complete bitchiness, because i am sorry for not opening my eyes to see someone that cares about me.
colleen: pretty much the same as nicole, i always feel out of place and a tag along. i am jealous of you. you have a million friends that all want to do stuff with you. you are always the life of the party, and everyone loves and cares for you. you said over the lj that you would put this behind us, and i am soo grateful for that. it shows a characteristic of a true friend, someone who is willing to forgive and move on in the relationship. i am truly sorry for hurting you and i hope you truly forgive me.
sarah: i was so angry with you for posting entries that referred to me, i feel that you dont care and it may or may not be true. friends shouldnt post stuff like that, and i am sorry for putting your name on the list and not confronting you in person. it was wrong of me in so many ways, i know i am not a good friend. but whenever you bash me in any way or shape, it takes a toll on me, and it hurts so bad. i know you were incredibly hurt by my actions, and i regret it, as someone said i would. my only purpose of that entry was to let you know that i had an issue of feeling left out, i did not mean to hurt you, i only meant to open the doors of confrontation. but you're right. there should be no excuses, my actions were wrong and i should have talked to you in person. i wish i could take back what has happened, but we both know that that isnt possible. the only thing i can promise you is that i will try to be a much better friend and pay attention to when someone is there for me. i do not deserve to be your friend, nor do i deserve your respect or forgiveness. i can only try to let you know that i am sorry. i am sorry for being a stupid, selfish, self-centered, attention-loving, bitchy brat...i can only ask that you understand that i am sorry for my actions and whether or not you forgive me is your choice. i wish we could be friends again, i still consider you my friend even through this wicked "rough patch". i pray that you see where i am coming from and that you can forgive me one of these days.
to all of my friends, i promise to try to never again doubt our friendship and never try to hurt you again. nothing is solved through fighting, it only brings more tears and anger. every hurtful thing that was said to me, if you meant it, i forgive you. i have been in many fights and know that many things are said out of anger and that the actions people take arent always the wisest ones. to all my friends, even if i didnt make an individual apology on this entry, i am sorry for what i have ever done to hurt you. i love you all as friends and hope that you accept my apology.
please know that i am pouring my heart out, and that every thing i wrote is 100% true.
sorry seems to be the hardest word to say
new lj: identity7crisis, comment to be added, if you want. whatever, ill add whoever i feel like.
RIP bittydancer1789
i hope those people i have offended beyond belief will permit me to make a public apology over my LJ and in person. i am leaving it as a public entry(sorry).
misie: you have always been by my side, even though i often pushed you away. i enjoyed our random talks and good times in hackney's band. i do remember all the times that youve said that i should get help, and how i didnt want any. its true. i dont feel that people truly know whats going on in my life, so i push them away and make stupid cries for attention. i admire that you have been a wicked good friend for the past 2.5 years. i am thankful for that. i am sorry for pushing you away.
nicole: i still dont see how you stood by me last year, you knew what happened and acknowledged it, i just feel that it was more out of pity (for lack of a better word). i know that you do care, but i constantly feel left out and a tag along whenever im around you; i always feel out of place. i am NOT trying to make you feel guilty, i am just trying to express my feelings. i hope you forgive me for my complete bitchiness, because i am sorry for not opening my eyes to see someone that cares about me.
colleen: pretty much the same as nicole, i always feel out of place and a tag along. i am jealous of you. you have a million friends that all want to do stuff with you. you are always the life of the party, and everyone loves and cares for you. you said over the lj that you would put this behind us, and i am soo grateful for that. it shows a characteristic of a true friend, someone who is willing to forgive and move on in the relationship. i am truly sorry for hurting you and i hope you truly forgive me.
sarah: i was so angry with you for posting entries that referred to me, i feel that you dont care and it may or may not be true. friends shouldnt post stuff like that, and i am sorry for putting your name on the list and not confronting you in person. it was wrong of me in so many ways, i know i am not a good friend. but whenever you bash me in any way or shape, it takes a toll on me, and it hurts so bad. i know you were incredibly hurt by my actions, and i regret it, as someone said i would. my only purpose of that entry was to let you know that i had an issue of feeling left out, i did not mean to hurt you, i only meant to open the doors of confrontation. but you're right. there should be no excuses, my actions were wrong and i should have talked to you in person. i wish i could take back what has happened, but we both know that that isnt possible. the only thing i can promise you is that i will try to be a much better friend and pay attention to when someone is there for me. i do not deserve to be your friend, nor do i deserve your respect or forgiveness. i can only try to let you know that i am sorry. i am sorry for being a stupid, selfish, self-centered, attention-loving, bitchy brat...i can only ask that you understand that i am sorry for my actions and whether or not you forgive me is your choice. i wish we could be friends again, i still consider you my friend even through this wicked "rough patch". i pray that you see where i am coming from and that you can forgive me one of these days.
to all of my friends, i promise to try to never again doubt our friendship and never try to hurt you again. nothing is solved through fighting, it only brings more tears and anger. every hurtful thing that was said to me, if you meant it, i forgive you. i have been in many fights and know that many things are said out of anger and that the actions people take arent always the wisest ones. to all my friends, even if i didnt make an individual apology on this entry, i am sorry for what i have ever done to hurt you. i love you all as friends and hope that you accept my apology.
please know that i am pouring my heart out, and that every thing i wrote is 100% true.
sorry seems to be the hardest word to say
new lj: identity7crisis, comment to be added, if you want. whatever, ill add whoever i feel like.
RIP bittydancer1789