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i almost let
the blood spill
onto the floor today
i almost let
myself soak in it
i almost let
my clothes sop it up

with my grandmother
right outside the door
waiting to see me
go on stage
waiting to see me
sing
that's all

did i ever stop to think
of what it would do to my family?

yes.

did i ever care?

yes.

that's why i'm typing this.

here in my chair.

my brother's chair.

and my chair.