sooo...
well...so i've been thinking. i hate guys lol. this whole felipe shti sucks so fucking bad. all i keep hearing from people is, 'oh hunny you deserve better;' 'oh hunny he's not worth it.' but the thing is, no one, except for a select few, understands why im so upset that i cant find him. he's not just some random guy i liked. he was my FRIEND. and nowadays, especially at our school, finding a guy who will be your boyfriend and your friend is so so hard to find. he cared about me and my life and i cared about him and his life. and we could just talk about anything. if i was having issues with friends, i could talk to him about it. if he was having problems with his grandparents, he would call me. we were there for eachother. and i know its been a while. and i know i should move on. but its so hard when i dont know where he fucking IS! i hope he's okay. im sure he is and just figured im over it and never called. his phone doesnt work.and although i'd like to believe that he just doesnt want to call me, would he really go to all the trouble of CANCELLING HIS PHONE?! and if he did then i'm just pathetic. and lauren does have a point, he could just not have had enough to pay his phone bill and didnt wanna tap into his college savings. but that still leaves me the loser waiting for a phonecall, cause all he has to do is call me from another phone. but w/e. i am slowly getting over it. i mean it's not like i'm in love with the guy. and i hate sounding so desperate and clingy and pathetic. UGH!. fuck this shit i fucking hate it. whatever im done.
fuck it.
lyss
fuck it.
lyss