Dec 01, 2007 21:35
soo life's going pretty good right now. i've decided im going to do everything in my power to improve my freaking flexibilty, feet, and turn out. i know its possible, it just takes alot of work. i want to do dance when i go to college. i've fully made that decision and im going to transfer to the dance department next year instead of going back to the musical theatre department. i might have to opportunity to book an audition and transfer in january but i dont think i could do that. im already in the musical and 4 people have already dropped outta the department. i'd make 5. =[
plus i still want the rest of this year with steven. gah i dont know!!!
i've decided that i really want this. i love dance and i always have even if i took a year off to figure that out. i know where i am now and what i want. the question is, should i waste the rest of my year in the mt department just b/c i feel bad for everyone leaving and i wanna spend the rest of the year with steven?? or should i take the chance to join the dance department so i will be dancing every day and working towards my highest goal?? gah i dont know!!!! my life is so freaking complicated at times.
well either ways i will be stretching every day and dancing as much as possible which isn't nearly as much as i'd like. who knows if i'll even be in the jazz recital b/c i've missed almost a month of it because of my stupid rehersals for the damn gala. ugh. oh well. pray for me. i really want to do this. possibly for my career even. i am just gonna work my ass off for the next 2 1/2 years of high school and make sure to make straight a's so i get into a kick ass college. Flordia STate university apparently has a great dance programs. or indiana u. or cinncinati. but as much as i'd love to do nyu for dance, my mom is not letting me go to nyc for college which is SO gay.
my life is great just complicated. i helped my mom decorate for christmas today and it was alot of fun. im totally getting into christmas and everything this year. i mean not that i dont but just alot more this year. im excited for christmas and these next few weeks of school/dance. not so much gsa but whatevv...its fun because of the people there. i just hate the classes and i hate andrew to the bottomest depths of hell. he can suck it for all i care. gah. oh well.
i need to go do homework to get my straight a's that i want so bad. yay! lol