Burnt Out

[bitterwind]

I've come to the conclusion today that I'm burnt out from the round-after-round of staff cuts (next axe falls in May althought the shuffling of departments has already begun). I was sitting in my cubical staring at collection of half-finished projects scattered across my todo list, realizing that I never finish anything any more, I just work on it

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[whatawookie]

You sounded burnt out last year, too.

I guess my question to you is: are you going to continue taking the more passive, internal road of waiting to see what will happen, or will you change gears and become more proactive about the rest of your career. You have 3 more decades ahead of you at minimum, just of working, never mind living.

Do you want to continue what you're doing? Where you're doing it? What do you want to do with? Who do you want to be, and where do you want to be? Will you be the one to make that happen or will circumstance?

I too have allowed exterior happenings (layoffs, conflicts of education) to shape what direction I'm moving. I've also made a very concious choice that work is not going to be the thing that completes me as a person, and it has allowed me to pursue my "hobbies" with a great deal more satisfaction. Some things are very much beyond our control, but if we do not have a course charted or a destination in mind, we are utterly at the mercy of the wind.

You just don't ever seem very fulfilled by what you do at work, and that's not nessecarily a bad thing, my concern is that it seems to have drained off what other colour you have in your life. Or maybe it just sounds that way, in this format.

[bitterwind]

I'm haunted by the old saying that "the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence".

No, right now I don't feel fulfilled or even terribly useful, nor am I likely to make progress on my life's goals. But it's food on the table and a roof over my head, things I don't feel inclined to risk.