Wow I feel kinda bad
I apologized to him and I guess I thought everything would be okay but all he said was thats fine.. Thats fucking all and now I'm mad at myself for even caring enough to say I was sorry, because either way he didnt care at all.. I made him a site and I dont even think he really cared at all...Sure he said it was okay, and he loved me for it but idk..I know it wasnt anything awesome in fact it kinda sucked but I guess I thought it was the thought that counts..Yeah I'm an idiot with a sinus infection...I wonder if he even knows I'm sick.
I'm feeling really ugly right now, both on the inside and on the out. I cant believe my self sometimes...Some of the things I say are so insensitive and mean and naive, and just overall stupid as hell, but for some reason I expect people to give a damn about me after all those things I do. Its painful when I think about all the thing I've done, all the stupid callous, mean, jerkish things. It makes me believe that when I die I'll be at piece, I'll be where I belong, in hell.
I'm feeling really ugly right now, both on the inside and on the out. I cant believe my self sometimes...Some of the things I say are so insensitive and mean and naive, and just overall stupid as hell, but for some reason I expect people to give a damn about me after all those things I do. Its painful when I think about all the thing I've done, all the stupid callous, mean, jerkish things. It makes me believe that when I die I'll be at piece, I'll be where I belong, in hell.