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[bittersweetshe]

I hate myself. I hate that I'm so lazy and I don't give my best. And I feel bad about that. I really hate myself. I wanna be hardworking person and be proud of myself. But it's so hard to change... When I see how hard asian boys (like JaeJoong, Se7en, YamaPi, Kame and others) work I feel even worse ^^' It's silly I know, but I think that they wouldn't like me because I do (or not) only what I have to making the less effort I can :( It's so shameful ;( And going on course not from my dreams and which I'm not so interesting in that much isn't any excuse. I should work even harder! God! I hope I can change.. can I? T_T
And I admire dio_elaclaire :*

Sorry for that :(