its one of those days where u jsut need a hug.
lately ive been keeping my emotions bottled up, stacking and stacking on top of one another. until u know that u have the feeling like there might not be another chance to express them, and you do. && all i can say is that im so happy that this man is in my life. im greatful to have met him and i hate the way that i feel. i hate that even though i understand everything that he says, that i still feel the same inside. i wish i could just stop myself from thinking certain ways, but i dont think that it will ever happen and i hate it. i love how we argue. i love how we fight. i love how he always just holds me when i freak out until i settle down. i love the kisses. i love how even the littlest note on a white board can make my entire week. most of all i love the person inside.
im so scared. and im not ready to move on. i hate the fact that im the one that needs more time, because it was all my fault to begin with.
i love richard craig bershas with all my heart. and nobody can change that.
--nikki, thanks so much for just being there, im so glad that ihave u in my life. your amazing. i hope that you stay happy with joey for as long as your heart desires. and ill always be here for you, even though it may seem like im not. i love you--
Good Night and Sweet Dreams everyone.