Oh God.
alright well i know my last entry is a year old, but i did have the myspace blog but then people like to delete my account because they're idiots
so i have to resort to my old live journal entry. yeah how wierd right?
so many things have happened its unreal
right now recently bianca was in a fight between johnathan and i and she came back to us trying to make things right with everyone. stephanie was also invovled but she still doesnt like us so that okay
i dont know what i will do about bianca, everything isnt just automatically alright between her and johnathan, but i have to give it alot mroe thought than he does
meg and i are talking again, alot of things with her and i werent figured out but now they are; so we were basically, well I was basically mad at her for a reason that was a lie. if you know me at all you know lieing is the biggest thing in the world that i cannot stand
friendships, reltionships, jobs... just the whole world are suppose to be based on trust. Trust is the corner stone to any reltinoship in life, and if someone lies or if you know something other thant he TRUTH how can you even begin to want that in your life? life isnt suppose to be about lies. but anyways so things between meg and i are okay, i just have to get my mom to let me hang out with her again. My Mom holds grudges like a 4th grader; its pathetic
My emotions are so odd right now. I don't know how I feel about this thing with bianca, I dont know how I feel about alot of things really
Im so sick of highschool
thats why im changing... well hopefully changing. i cant stand bentley at all anymore. and even if bianca and i do make up and things are "ok" well I really jsut want a new whole start and stuff
So yeah...
I wish I could say how I really feel
I wish I could tell people how I really feel
About more than just one subject
But its more than hard
It feels impossible to me
Because of what the out come may be
Its just oh-so hard.
:'[
I know what I want... and i'd give the world for it.
Litterally. I would give absolutley anything to have what I want right now.
so i have to resort to my old live journal entry. yeah how wierd right?
so many things have happened its unreal
right now recently bianca was in a fight between johnathan and i and she came back to us trying to make things right with everyone. stephanie was also invovled but she still doesnt like us so that okay
i dont know what i will do about bianca, everything isnt just automatically alright between her and johnathan, but i have to give it alot mroe thought than he does
meg and i are talking again, alot of things with her and i werent figured out but now they are; so we were basically, well I was basically mad at her for a reason that was a lie. if you know me at all you know lieing is the biggest thing in the world that i cannot stand
friendships, reltionships, jobs... just the whole world are suppose to be based on trust. Trust is the corner stone to any reltinoship in life, and if someone lies or if you know something other thant he TRUTH how can you even begin to want that in your life? life isnt suppose to be about lies. but anyways so things between meg and i are okay, i just have to get my mom to let me hang out with her again. My Mom holds grudges like a 4th grader; its pathetic
My emotions are so odd right now. I don't know how I feel about this thing with bianca, I dont know how I feel about alot of things really
Im so sick of highschool
thats why im changing... well hopefully changing. i cant stand bentley at all anymore. and even if bianca and i do make up and things are "ok" well I really jsut want a new whole start and stuff
So yeah...
I wish I could say how I really feel
I wish I could tell people how I really feel
About more than just one subject
But its more than hard
It feels impossible to me
Because of what the out come may be
Its just oh-so hard.
:'[
I know what I want... and i'd give the world for it.
Litterally. I would give absolutley anything to have what I want right now.