As If You Didn't Know That It Would Sting - a Sam/Dean Mix
Because TONIGHT'S THE NIGHT!!! What better way to celebrate than with a SHIT LOAD of music? Therefore: a fairly depressing Sam/Dean season 4, up to now-mix :) HOPE YOU LIKE IT!!! And sorry for all the accidental posting *sporks semagic*
.zip of all songs and art on sendspace
.disc ONE
01. Anna Ternheim - What Have I Done
You are my everything
My head and my heart mind my wing
The past the present tomorrow too
I’ll spend my final day
with you
I hope you feel the way I do
I hope you give yourself up too
I’m damned to feel the way I do
What have I done
to fall so hard
for you
02. Bloc Party - Talons
No boat nor brick
Nor crucifix can hold it back
I've been wicked
I've been arrogant
And when it comes it will feel like a kiss (Silent about it)
And when it comes it will feel like a kiss
And I cannot say that I was not warned or was misled
And when it comes it will feel like a kiss
03. Polly Scattergood - Breathe In, Breathe Out
You are constant
Constant to me
Though you are distant
You're my shadow
Constantly
Learn to breathe in
Learn to breathe out
Can't let you go
Can’t let you go
04. Wilco - One Wing (live)
you were a blessing
and i was a curse
did my best not to make things worse
for you
it isnt true
i always knew this would be our fate
this is what happens when we separate
this happens to all dead weight
now I’m too late
05. Timo Räisänen - Halo (Depeche Mode cover)
wear your guilt
like shackles round your feet
like a halo in reverse
I can feel
the discomfort in your seat
and in your head it's worse
06. Aereogramme and Hal Duncan - (If You Love Me You'd) Destroy Me
I'll give you my heart, I'll give you my soul
I'll give you all that I've ever been
And all that I've touched, that's ever touched me
The flesh and the bones of my memories
And if you love me you'd destroy me
If you love me you'd destroy me
I'll give the secrets that no one else knows
Stripping my soul as I strip off my clothes
I'll whisper my sorrows in your ear
I'll give you my blood, my sweat and my tears
07. British Sea Power - No Lucifer
The man with the skull and bone
You think you know but you don’t
To Sodom I will go
Not to Meggido
Several Lucifers come
And we will beat them all
08. Helicopter Girl - Flesh and Blood
Give me back my heart, destiny
The devil is only flesh and blood
Give me back my heart
I'm only flesh and blood
09. Lavender Diamond - Side of the Lord
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But it seems these days like all the sides are changing
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But it seems like all the sides are rearranging
Oh, we try so hard to be dead
Oh, but how can it be that the world never ends
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But I don't know if I'm inside or I'm outside
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But I don't know if I'm to the left or to the right
10. Timber Timbre - Patron Saint Hunter
they know what you did
they know what you did ain't right
keep the family in
keep the family sin
daddy locked the temple door
evil isn't in
evil isn't in your core
you're the patron saint hunter
with your prey
11. The Mountain Goats - Autoclave
Hand me your hand, let me look in your eyes
As my last chance to feel human begins to vaporize
Maybe it’s the heat in here, maybe it’s the pressure
You ought to head for the exits, the sooner the better
I dreamt that I was perched atop a throne of human skulls
On a cliff above the ocean, howling wind and shrieking seagulls
And the dream went on forever, one single static frame
Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name
12. Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Jesus of the Moon
I stepped out of the St. James hotel
And I left you behind curled up like a child
A change is gonna come
And as the door whispered shut
I walked on down the high-windowed hall
Maybe it was you or maybe it was me?
You came on like a punch in the heart
Lying there with the light on your hair
Like a Jesus of the moon
A Jesus of the planets and the stars
13. The Music - Symbol of Hope
The desperation, aching in my bones
It's like the fire that burns in you
I lie awake just to think of a reason
A simple plan to help me through
I lie awake just to think of a reason
You feed my soul up, you keep my song alive
14. Malcolm Middleton - Call the Shots (Girls Aloud cover)
Out of the fire that burns inside me
A phoenix is rising
If you don’t feel that you can love me
I won’t shoot you down
I won’t cry for all the hunger in my heart, no
No, I won’t cry because I’ve stumbled through this far
15. Mirah - Don't Die In Me (Night time in the DeLta Mix)
The mighty continents divided
For a second time in all history
They found themselves just floating
Free from all responsibility
Without the weight of being whole
Some fruits evolved all on their own
But if you want something back
All the things that got cracked
When I felt like you lied to me
And all the million mistakes
And the kicks in the face
But i don't want you to die in me
So when you say what you want
That you need what you got
Don't forget to be kind to me
16. Paper Rival - Bluebird
blood, there's blood on the carpet
blood, there's blood on your hands
if the two are connected
I'll know where we stand
you, caught in the middle
you, cut to the core
you're left in the dust of decisions
begging for more
17. Mika - Over My Shoulder
Over my shoulder, running away,
Feels like I'm falling, losing my way.
Cold and dry.
Fog out my daylight, torture my night.
Feels like I'm falling, far out of sight.
Cold, Drunk, Tired, Lost.
18. Florence And The Machine - Don't Tell Me (demo)
I'm not calling you a liar
just dont lie to me
I'm not calling you a thief
just dont steal from me
I'm not calling you a ghost
just stop haunting me
i love you so much
that i'm going to let you kill me
don't tell me what you've done
i'm to tired to fight
i'm just going to lay right here
but im angry to sleep
without you near
i'm not at home with myself
i'm not at home with you either
i'm to scared to leave
but i never seem safe here
19. Brett Anderson - Funeral Mantra
We learn
The consequence of sin.
We roll our eyes
And touch our skin
We kneel
Before the open grave.
And light
The candles with our pain
20. Amanda Palmer - I Will Follow You Into The Dark (Death Cab For Cutie cover)
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
.disc TWO
21. Cloud Cult - When Water Comes To Life
and when the angels come
they'll cut you down the middle
to see if you're still there
to see if you're still there
and underneath your ribs
they'll find the heart shaped locket
an old photograph of you in daddy's arms
and then they'll sew you closed
and give you back to the water
from where we're all born
22. A Camp - Stronger Than Jesus
it's a riddle how lovers can stay alive
but we bloom and breathe in all decline
Don't you know love is stronger than Jesus?
Don't you know love can kill anyone?
So bring it on, wars and diseases
You know that love can do you like a shotgun
23. Iron & Wine - No Moon
Black dog bit through the keeper's chain
Small and angry when the Devil came
Sold my soul like a pocket knife
There was no moon, there'll be no milk as sweet
Blue bird laughs on a fallen tree
Sunset burns on a quiet sea
Sold my soul and they ran me down
There was no moon, there'll be no milk as sweet
24. Mirah - Bones & Skin
If you live inside the old graveyard
your skin and bones get kinda hard
you blame it on all of the ones who left you
If you're in the closet with a broom
why don't you sweep around the room
make little piles of all the things you don't understand
in the place that's made of old relations
where some got loved some got hated
how absently you move around
how listless
how in the night the battle raged
under the blankets where we brave
at least enough to recognize the storm is just a storm
Don't forget, you've got love
You've got bravery, you've got trust
You've got bodies, responsibilities,
There's still mountains,
they're pushing up from underneath
You've got pain, caused plenty of
It's not so strange but now you've had enough
Don't forget your bones and skin
Or where you go,
or where you've been
25. Polly Scattergood - I Am Strong
I am strong, I am not weak
I am not in a place where I can talk to you
I am not hot, I am not cold
I am not for sale, I am sold
I built this house, it took quite long
Sticks and stones, I made it strong
I locked it up, I gave you a key
But you didn't come home to me
I am strong, I am not weak
I am not in a place where I can talk to you
I am not hot, I am not cold
I am not for sale, I am sold
I am not a prisoner, yet I'm not free
I lost my mind, but I can see
I feel a witch upon my back
She stole my soul, I want it back
26. The Mars Volta - Since We've Been Wrong
I don't belong here, I shouldn't stay
what falls inside me grows empty
the walls between us will never break
just seal it shut, it grows empty
Since we've been wrong
I've been part awake
since we've been wrong
you will never, ever know me
27. Wintersleep - Weighty Ghost
Are you some kind of medicine man?
Cut the demons out of my head
You can't kill something that's already dead
Just leave my soul alone
I don't need no surgery
Take those knives away from me
Just wanna die in my own body
A ghost just needs a home
28. Micah P. Hinson - Tell Me It Ain't So
Constantly protecting what isn't mine
Constantly protecting what isn't mine
Names on the wall
And ghost chatting down the hallways
Constantly craving what isn't mine
Constantly craving what isn't mine
Hands on the shelves
And wall run down the well
Tell me it ain't so
Please tell me it ain't so
29. Calexico - Bend To The Road
Holding back your tears from letting go of your heart
Leaving the middle of the road
Letting go just a little bit
Till it all spills out the side of the road
30. The Tunics - Fade Out
Can you love me? Or can you need me
Like i needed you
When for you my love,
There’s nothing that i wouldn’t do
It’s enough to make you feel what you’re doing
What you’re doing is wrong
Oh enough to make you cry or want to die alone
you know I need you
Fade out, is what they want you to do
Fade out, when they hear it from you
Fade out, when they get you alone
31. Lykke Li - Tonight
push my back so i make sure
you're right behind me as before
yesterday the night before tomorrow
dry my eyes so you won't know
dry my eyes so i won't show
i know you're right behind me
and don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
32. Florence And The Machine - Howl
If you could only see the beast you've made of me
I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free
Screaming in the dark, I howl when we're apart
Drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart
My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to howl
My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to
Howl, howl
33. Herman Dune - My Home Is Nowhere Without You
There are houses full of dogs and full of bugs
In a city full of gods and full of thugs
I wandered there down the streets and up on first avenue
But my home is nowhere without you
My home is nowhere without you
My home is nowhere without you
34. El Perro Del Mar - L Is For Love
when the night is near
you can lean on
L is for love
when the end is near
you can lean on
L is for love
35. Fever Ray - Dry And Dusty
never leave me
walk close beside me
your hand my hand
fits so easy
no tomorrow
let us stop here
we did some great things
or didn't we
36. Christian Kjellvander & Anna Järvinen - Not Forever (Popsicle cover)
You're my relief and you're
The one who makes me cry
I'm trying to figure out
Some way
To get on by
Cause I can change I'm not the same
Not forever
What can I say I'm not OK
I wish I was
I want you back I want a time
I can remember
It's as simple as I say
I can change I'm not the same
Not forever
37. Loney, Dear - Everything Turns To You
and here is everything I want,
over everything you do.
This is what I want to change
to make it matterful again
but nothing ever ever made the change
made the change
38. Wolf Parade - Kissing The Beehive
Lost on a river our hearts beat regular time
Well the landscapes don't
The rivers flowing by
We're just drifting all night long hands to the sky
And a captain, oh he is never denied
As if you didn't know that it would sting
Kissing the beehive
And pissing down the mountain side in the rain
As if you didn't know that it would sting
Kissing the beehive
And fucking up your finger from pushing on the ring
39. Madrugada - Highway of Light
Headlights penetrate the wall
Of darkness that surround it all
We chase the highway on and on
Tonight the highway is our home
40. Anna Ternheim - What Have I Done (acoustic version)
You are my everything
My head and my heart mind my wing
i could give all again
I'm never sure
of anyything
with you
The jokes the laughs the teardrops too
The games the fun the travels too
Yes I won't do them all with you
All good things now come from you
I hope you feel the way I do
I hope you give yourself up too
I'm damned to feel the way I do
What have I done
to fall so hard
for you
.zip of all songs and art on sendspace
.disc ONE
01. Anna Ternheim - What Have I Done
You are my everything
My head and my heart mind my wing
The past the present tomorrow too
I’ll spend my final day
with you
I hope you feel the way I do
I hope you give yourself up too
I’m damned to feel the way I do
What have I done
to fall so hard
for you
02. Bloc Party - Talons
No boat nor brick
Nor crucifix can hold it back
I've been wicked
I've been arrogant
And when it comes it will feel like a kiss (Silent about it)
And when it comes it will feel like a kiss
And I cannot say that I was not warned or was misled
And when it comes it will feel like a kiss
03. Polly Scattergood - Breathe In, Breathe Out
You are constant
Constant to me
Though you are distant
You're my shadow
Constantly
Learn to breathe in
Learn to breathe out
Can't let you go
Can’t let you go
04. Wilco - One Wing (live)
you were a blessing
and i was a curse
did my best not to make things worse
for you
it isnt true
i always knew this would be our fate
this is what happens when we separate
this happens to all dead weight
now I’m too late
05. Timo Räisänen - Halo (Depeche Mode cover)
wear your guilt
like shackles round your feet
like a halo in reverse
I can feel
the discomfort in your seat
and in your head it's worse
06. Aereogramme and Hal Duncan - (If You Love Me You'd) Destroy Me
I'll give you my heart, I'll give you my soul
I'll give you all that I've ever been
And all that I've touched, that's ever touched me
The flesh and the bones of my memories
And if you love me you'd destroy me
If you love me you'd destroy me
I'll give the secrets that no one else knows
Stripping my soul as I strip off my clothes
I'll whisper my sorrows in your ear
I'll give you my blood, my sweat and my tears
07. British Sea Power - No Lucifer
The man with the skull and bone
You think you know but you don’t
To Sodom I will go
Not to Meggido
Several Lucifers come
And we will beat them all
08. Helicopter Girl - Flesh and Blood
Give me back my heart, destiny
The devil is only flesh and blood
Give me back my heart
I'm only flesh and blood
09. Lavender Diamond - Side of the Lord
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But it seems these days like all the sides are changing
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But it seems like all the sides are rearranging
Oh, we try so hard to be dead
Oh, but how can it be that the world never ends
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But I don't know if I'm inside or I'm outside
Oh I must be on the side of the Lord
But I don't know if I'm to the left or to the right
10. Timber Timbre - Patron Saint Hunter
they know what you did
they know what you did ain't right
keep the family in
keep the family sin
daddy locked the temple door
evil isn't in
evil isn't in your core
you're the patron saint hunter
with your prey
11. The Mountain Goats - Autoclave
Hand me your hand, let me look in your eyes
As my last chance to feel human begins to vaporize
Maybe it’s the heat in here, maybe it’s the pressure
You ought to head for the exits, the sooner the better
I dreamt that I was perched atop a throne of human skulls
On a cliff above the ocean, howling wind and shrieking seagulls
And the dream went on forever, one single static frame
Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name
12. Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Jesus of the Moon
I stepped out of the St. James hotel
And I left you behind curled up like a child
A change is gonna come
And as the door whispered shut
I walked on down the high-windowed hall
Maybe it was you or maybe it was me?
You came on like a punch in the heart
Lying there with the light on your hair
Like a Jesus of the moon
A Jesus of the planets and the stars
13. The Music - Symbol of Hope
The desperation, aching in my bones
It's like the fire that burns in you
I lie awake just to think of a reason
A simple plan to help me through
I lie awake just to think of a reason
You feed my soul up, you keep my song alive
14. Malcolm Middleton - Call the Shots (Girls Aloud cover)
Out of the fire that burns inside me
A phoenix is rising
If you don’t feel that you can love me
I won’t shoot you down
I won’t cry for all the hunger in my heart, no
No, I won’t cry because I’ve stumbled through this far
15. Mirah - Don't Die In Me (Night time in the DeLta Mix)
The mighty continents divided
For a second time in all history
They found themselves just floating
Free from all responsibility
Without the weight of being whole
Some fruits evolved all on their own
But if you want something back
All the things that got cracked
When I felt like you lied to me
And all the million mistakes
And the kicks in the face
But i don't want you to die in me
So when you say what you want
That you need what you got
Don't forget to be kind to me
16. Paper Rival - Bluebird
blood, there's blood on the carpet
blood, there's blood on your hands
if the two are connected
I'll know where we stand
you, caught in the middle
you, cut to the core
you're left in the dust of decisions
begging for more
17. Mika - Over My Shoulder
Over my shoulder, running away,
Feels like I'm falling, losing my way.
Cold and dry.
Fog out my daylight, torture my night.
Feels like I'm falling, far out of sight.
Cold, Drunk, Tired, Lost.
18. Florence And The Machine - Don't Tell Me (demo)
I'm not calling you a liar
just dont lie to me
I'm not calling you a thief
just dont steal from me
I'm not calling you a ghost
just stop haunting me
i love you so much
that i'm going to let you kill me
don't tell me what you've done
i'm to tired to fight
i'm just going to lay right here
but im angry to sleep
without you near
i'm not at home with myself
i'm not at home with you either
i'm to scared to leave
but i never seem safe here
19. Brett Anderson - Funeral Mantra
We learn
The consequence of sin.
We roll our eyes
And touch our skin
We kneel
Before the open grave.
And light
The candles with our pain
20. Amanda Palmer - I Will Follow You Into The Dark (Death Cab For Cutie cover)
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
.disc TWO
21. Cloud Cult - When Water Comes To Life
and when the angels come
they'll cut you down the middle
to see if you're still there
to see if you're still there
and underneath your ribs
they'll find the heart shaped locket
an old photograph of you in daddy's arms
and then they'll sew you closed
and give you back to the water
from where we're all born
22. A Camp - Stronger Than Jesus
it's a riddle how lovers can stay alive
but we bloom and breathe in all decline
Don't you know love is stronger than Jesus?
Don't you know love can kill anyone?
So bring it on, wars and diseases
You know that love can do you like a shotgun
23. Iron & Wine - No Moon
Black dog bit through the keeper's chain
Small and angry when the Devil came
Sold my soul like a pocket knife
There was no moon, there'll be no milk as sweet
Blue bird laughs on a fallen tree
Sunset burns on a quiet sea
Sold my soul and they ran me down
There was no moon, there'll be no milk as sweet
24. Mirah - Bones & Skin
If you live inside the old graveyard
your skin and bones get kinda hard
you blame it on all of the ones who left you
If you're in the closet with a broom
why don't you sweep around the room
make little piles of all the things you don't understand
in the place that's made of old relations
where some got loved some got hated
how absently you move around
how listless
how in the night the battle raged
under the blankets where we brave
at least enough to recognize the storm is just a storm
Don't forget, you've got love
You've got bravery, you've got trust
You've got bodies, responsibilities,
There's still mountains,
they're pushing up from underneath
You've got pain, caused plenty of
It's not so strange but now you've had enough
Don't forget your bones and skin
Or where you go,
or where you've been
25. Polly Scattergood - I Am Strong
I am strong, I am not weak
I am not in a place where I can talk to you
I am not hot, I am not cold
I am not for sale, I am sold
I built this house, it took quite long
Sticks and stones, I made it strong
I locked it up, I gave you a key
But you didn't come home to me
I am strong, I am not weak
I am not in a place where I can talk to you
I am not hot, I am not cold
I am not for sale, I am sold
I am not a prisoner, yet I'm not free
I lost my mind, but I can see
I feel a witch upon my back
She stole my soul, I want it back
26. The Mars Volta - Since We've Been Wrong
I don't belong here, I shouldn't stay
what falls inside me grows empty
the walls between us will never break
just seal it shut, it grows empty
Since we've been wrong
I've been part awake
since we've been wrong
you will never, ever know me
27. Wintersleep - Weighty Ghost
Are you some kind of medicine man?
Cut the demons out of my head
You can't kill something that's already dead
Just leave my soul alone
I don't need no surgery
Take those knives away from me
Just wanna die in my own body
A ghost just needs a home
28. Micah P. Hinson - Tell Me It Ain't So
Constantly protecting what isn't mine
Constantly protecting what isn't mine
Names on the wall
And ghost chatting down the hallways
Constantly craving what isn't mine
Constantly craving what isn't mine
Hands on the shelves
And wall run down the well
Tell me it ain't so
Please tell me it ain't so
29. Calexico - Bend To The Road
Holding back your tears from letting go of your heart
Leaving the middle of the road
Letting go just a little bit
Till it all spills out the side of the road
30. The Tunics - Fade Out
Can you love me? Or can you need me
Like i needed you
When for you my love,
There’s nothing that i wouldn’t do
It’s enough to make you feel what you’re doing
What you’re doing is wrong
Oh enough to make you cry or want to die alone
you know I need you
Fade out, is what they want you to do
Fade out, when they hear it from you
Fade out, when they get you alone
31. Lykke Li - Tonight
push my back so i make sure
you're right behind me as before
yesterday the night before tomorrow
dry my eyes so you won't know
dry my eyes so i won't show
i know you're right behind me
and don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
32. Florence And The Machine - Howl
If you could only see the beast you've made of me
I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free
Screaming in the dark, I howl when we're apart
Drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart
My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to howl
My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to
Howl, howl
33. Herman Dune - My Home Is Nowhere Without You
There are houses full of dogs and full of bugs
In a city full of gods and full of thugs
I wandered there down the streets and up on first avenue
But my home is nowhere without you
My home is nowhere without you
My home is nowhere without you
34. El Perro Del Mar - L Is For Love
when the night is near
you can lean on
L is for love
when the end is near
you can lean on
L is for love
35. Fever Ray - Dry And Dusty
never leave me
walk close beside me
your hand my hand
fits so easy
no tomorrow
let us stop here
we did some great things
or didn't we
36. Christian Kjellvander & Anna Järvinen - Not Forever (Popsicle cover)
You're my relief and you're
The one who makes me cry
I'm trying to figure out
Some way
To get on by
Cause I can change I'm not the same
Not forever
What can I say I'm not OK
I wish I was
I want you back I want a time
I can remember
It's as simple as I say
I can change I'm not the same
Not forever
37. Loney, Dear - Everything Turns To You
and here is everything I want,
over everything you do.
This is what I want to change
to make it matterful again
but nothing ever ever made the change
made the change
38. Wolf Parade - Kissing The Beehive
Lost on a river our hearts beat regular time
Well the landscapes don't
The rivers flowing by
We're just drifting all night long hands to the sky
And a captain, oh he is never denied
As if you didn't know that it would sting
Kissing the beehive
And pissing down the mountain side in the rain
As if you didn't know that it would sting
Kissing the beehive
And fucking up your finger from pushing on the ring
39. Madrugada - Highway of Light
Headlights penetrate the wall
Of darkness that surround it all
We chase the highway on and on
Tonight the highway is our home
40. Anna Ternheim - What Have I Done (acoustic version)
You are my everything
My head and my heart mind my wing
i could give all again
I'm never sure
of anyything
with you
The jokes the laughs the teardrops too
The games the fun the travels too
Yes I won't do them all with you
All good things now come from you
I hope you feel the way I do
I hope you give yourself up too
I'm damned to feel the way I do
What have I done
to fall so hard
for you