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alrighty...so i have been through hell and back and im doing well lol. school is going well and i only have like 2 months left-thank god!! i wanted to do really well on my last report card just b/c ..and i dont feel like doing shit now. i know i need to tho. im kinda glad to be back in school tho b/c vaca sucked that much. its nice to see everyone and school makes me happy b/c it occupies me. im under a lot of stress right now b/c my drivers test is coming up and so is prom and its just all scary. i havent been to the gym in the past couple days and im feeling it. for the past couple days ive been really weird. shit i use to feel, i dont feel anymore. im worried about other things so. catrina being one of them. she hasnt been herself and i love her and i hope she knows that. and kat has been sick for like 8 months now. i feel real bad. i love her 2. the one thing that has been really dominating my thinking is jim. it is really really difficult in the situation we are in, him being younger and all. i have told my mom and i told my brother and they are both fine with it and suprisingly...my dad is more than cool about it. its real weird. but his parents dont really really know, they just assume and jim broke it to his mom yesterday. we kinda need permission from everyone before we date-but it dosent matter b/c we arent ready to date yet. we have something good and we already fucked it up in the past so im not gonna do that again. my nana's also know lol..and they knew he was "in love with me" sense we have known them so its no suprise. also another big factor is he is kinda black lol. hes been on crutches for the past 2 weeks and thank god hes off today. but he starts baseball again next week and im never gonna see him and it pisses me off. we sat in front of my house today cause it was nice and just talked about everything and i think my nana butch hit on him lol. welp anyways..i have lots of homework and im going tanning...later
<3 ness
no more looking...i've found hope -Finch