up 2 early...
soo...yesterday was my family bday party. i did nothing all day-i listened to music and was really lazy.so im walking into stop and shop and im calling stephanie. after saying all the welcoming stuff she goes ya so i'll be there around 6. and i said wait how do u know already. she goes ness, i talked to you last night. i started cracking and asked her if she was really sure that we spoke and alls she said is dude what the hell did u drink last night. i guess i did black out after all. so the party wasnt all that bad, i was hung over/getting sick/emo all night so i got pissed over shit really easily. again, my family is insane. my aunt laura gets drunk off of a cup of wine. lol. there werent all that many people here.uncle marty, both nana's,jen(bella, diego, jon)laura,gene, luci, bri,catrina, jess, jimmy, adam,dina,jim...and i think thats it. lol diego was so so so cute. he just turned 2 on the 12th and omg does he swear. he goes right up to david and tells him he is a faggot. then..when the guys were playing video games, he would walk up to the xbox and unplug it lol.catrina bonded with my family really well and everyone realized how much we love each other =) shes awesome. i slept at my parents house last night and briana and isabella slept over=pure hell. isabella is 4 and briana is 7. i did thought get a back massage from them for a while. right now i'm watching nightmare before christmas...omg...with isabella.i got like 150 from the family and a 100 dollar gift certificate from my nana to hair dimensions for my prom hair. i want to start tanning and start yoga..thats alls i want. im also going to get another job as a waitress. i wanna work a lot so i dont have time to think and i can finally get a car. i also realized that i can not feed my body crap anymore. i ate chips last night and i almost died. im gonna eat really healthy and start working out..bathing suit season is coming up. oh ya! and i found my track jacket on drive thru. its early november.i woke up this morning soooooooooo happy. i had the best dream EVER. i hooked up with jason behr,omg. it was wonderful, lol.
danny called me friday and wanted to see me, but i said no. even tho he said he would quit and he wont stop until he gets me, i do not think its a good idea. i talked to my mommy about it 2, she said she dosent think its smart at all. rich has been really really nice 2 but i just dont have the heart for anyone right now. i dont think anyone that is interested in me right now would cut it anyways. i know that sounds terrible but, my standards are alot higher now than ever. i keep on seeing stuff and hearing stuff about certain people and omg it hurts me. im getting over it pretty well tho. i dont think i miss him...i think im lonely. nothing he has or is, is anything i want. i just miss love...so i gotta find it again and it has to be good lol. brian called me yesterday morning!! he got my number from jess and called to wish me a happy birthday. i was quite excited and we talked for a while. i have always been close with bri and i like it like that.welp, i think thats alls i have to say for right now. oh and...my mikey isnt doing very well at all. it took him like 10 minutes just to stand this morning, i lamost started crying, i love him so much and i cant think of my life without him. off to my day of h/w..shopping..who knows what else
oh ya..and i miss kat and kaileen =(
danny called me friday and wanted to see me, but i said no. even tho he said he would quit and he wont stop until he gets me, i do not think its a good idea. i talked to my mommy about it 2, she said she dosent think its smart at all. rich has been really really nice 2 but i just dont have the heart for anyone right now. i dont think anyone that is interested in me right now would cut it anyways. i know that sounds terrible but, my standards are alot higher now than ever. i keep on seeing stuff and hearing stuff about certain people and omg it hurts me. im getting over it pretty well tho. i dont think i miss him...i think im lonely. nothing he has or is, is anything i want. i just miss love...so i gotta find it again and it has to be good lol. brian called me yesterday morning!! he got my number from jess and called to wish me a happy birthday. i was quite excited and we talked for a while. i have always been close with bri and i like it like that.welp, i think thats alls i have to say for right now. oh and...my mikey isnt doing very well at all. it took him like 10 minutes just to stand this morning, i lamost started crying, i love him so much and i cant think of my life without him. off to my day of h/w..shopping..who knows what else
oh ya..and i miss kat and kaileen =(