Everything i know, and anywhere i go it gets hard but it wont take away...
I only update when 1-im bored 2-something good happens or 3-something bad happens/i need to get shit off my chest.
Lucky for you all its not 1 or 2. I dont know about anything anymore. Im not going to point this out to you, but its ironic that the closer i get to getting my license THE MORE DOUBTS YOU HAVE. Call me crazy but i think getting my license WILL help the situation on SOME level. (I wonder when you'll actually REALIZE this)...i cant go through september again, i really cant, and if i did i'd just blame myself. I want honesty. Thats all i want.
seriously..dont click on the cut if you arent in the mood for some totally emo music. lol
-I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
Got my eggs and my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you.
Break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
Never put wet towels on the floor anymore' cause
Dreams last so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
Called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
Picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
Saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy or I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad
Dreams last so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
Go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides, what would I say if i had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
Brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight
Dreams last so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you-
-Don't walk too close
Don't breathe so soft
Don't talk so sweet
Don't sing
Don't lay so near
Please don't let me fall in love with you again
Please let me forget
all those sweet smiles
all of the passion
all of the peace, the heat, the pain
all those blue skies
where your words were my freedom
Please, don't let me fall in love with you again
Too many times
I've cared too much
I stood on the edge
and say that you held my hand
and knowing too well
I couldn't hide from those eyes
Please, don't let me fall in love with you again-
-Please don't say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
they make my core tremble
Don't think you realize the effect you have over me
And please don't look at me like that
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow
And please don't touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
Please don't come so close
it just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't bring me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say
Don't try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It makes me want to make you near me always
And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me
So be gentle if you please, 'cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always...-
-you took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window,
always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
These foolish games are tearing me apart
your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking you cigarettes, talking over coffee
Your philosophies on are, Baroque moved you,
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of you loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself
These foolish games are breaking my heart
your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You took your coat off and stood in the rain
you were always like that-
-Just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things
to lie around
to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
Cuz theres some thing's
I'd like to say to you...
And I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
And I tell you to forget
the marks you left
across my neck
from those nights when we were both
found at our best
y'know,I could make this obvious,
And you, you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...
And I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
And I don't think that you know
Said I don't think that you know
Is that I don't think that
You know what
You've been missing-
-Well, i'll wait till you listen
I wont say a word
to follow your instincts
just never worked for me
your silent but strong, (yeah, I'm playing that card)
and your noticing nothing again
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keep that in mind the way that it felt
when the most I could do was to just blame myself
(yeah, I'm playing that card)
when the most I could do was to just blame myself
and I know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything (drop everything)
I know you didn't mean it (start it all over)
I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget)
So, we're talking forever
and you almost feel better
but, betters no excuse for tonight
you see, it's never bad enough
to just leave or give up
but, its never good enough to feel right
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
it will all catch up eventually
well, it caught up and honestly
the weight of my decisions
were impossible to hold
but they were never yours
they were never yours
Well I, know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything (drop everything)
I know you didn't mean it (start it all over)
I know you didn't meant it (remember more then youd like to forget)
Drop everything, start it all over
remember more then youd like to forget-
-Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I wil never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
(Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you?)
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
(Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you?)
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know..-
-and im not so sure if I'm sure of anything anymore
Well this is the last night (this is the last night)
that you'll be keepin'
secrets from me
Just hit the lights before you leave
you know, the million things you had to say
sorry just, just might have found it's way in there
somehow, someway
But don't worry sweetie
cause I already know
And I'm not so sure
if I'm sure of anything anymore
Well this is the last night (this is the last night)
that you'll be keepin'
secrets from me
And you're so guilty it's disgusting
He's been sneakin underneath your sheets
and your hands
have been in places that they probably shouldn't go
but don't worry sweetie
cause I already know
Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call
Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call
(this is, this is the last time i still wait for your call)
Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call -
-you woke up, in pieces
from making these changes
and holding the ransom,wont write you an anthem
on the outside, im trying, cuz inside, im dying
this broken heart was stronger than
now i cant stand to part with this
this broken heart
you took me for granted now im changed, you havent
it wont be so easy to sell me this feeling
this broken heart, was stronger than, the words i wish you never meant
this broken heart
cant make this right, you see on my face,
that im not gunna be alright, not tonight,
you can read all my letters, but that wont mean things are fine,
not this time, cuz you gave away all the secrets of you and i
this broken heart, was stronger than
now i cant stand to part with this
this broken heart, was stronger than,
the words i wish you never meant
this broken heart-
-But there you go for the last time
I finally know what I should have known then
But i could still be ruthless if you let me
But there you go when I'm not done
You're waving goodbye well at least you're having fun
The rising tide will not let you forget me
......Forget me-
-Taking steps back through the words I should have said to you
They all got lost
You went away
Well I feel sick and you just don't care anymore
Anymore
Hours to be with you
Minutes of me and you
And I can't feel this happening
So tie my hands back
And make me feel you coming down
Coming down
And you don't care
Your face is on a billboard
And you're everywhere
You don't care much for interviews
You're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone
You're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone away
If you don't like being hurt then please don't stay
It's hard to wave goodbye from airplanes
When I just don't think that you can see
I taper off
And say it's never worth the pain
Sometimes it is
And you don't care
Your face is on a billboard
And you're everywhere
You don't care much for interviews
You're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone
You're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone away
If you don't like being hurt then please don't stay
If you don't like being hurt then please don't stay
God I wish that I could make this right
Wish that there was something worth the time
For her to give to me
A phone call from L.A. is my present
There is nothing left for me to give
I wish I could
And I know that I should but
You know I know I won't
And you don't care
Your face is on a billboard
Your're everywhere
You don't care much for interviews
You're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone
You're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone away
If you don't like being hurt then please don't stay
If you don't like being hurt then get away
If you don't like being hurt then please don't stay -
-My empty promises
Led to our demise
And I could never tell you how I really feel
and for that I eternally apologize
I hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart
And I hope you feel the same
My empty promises
My empty promises
Brought us to an end
I just hurt you and I never looked back
now I have no logic to defend
I hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of the world that I have never seen
Yeah, I was young and dumb, but it still was fun
I'm forever indebted to you
I hope you feel the same
You seem like such a big part
Of my life and my heart
But the truth is I've found something new
And she easily towers over you
You seem like such a big part
Of my life and my heart
But the truth is I've found something new
And she easily towers over you-
-I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
to everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
just to forget your sweater so far
I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
you are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
maybe then you'd know how I feel
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
to everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
just to forget your sweater so far
I can honestly say
that I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
that cause my comatose to begin
I can honestly say
that I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
that cause my comatose to begin
I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
with words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
"All hail the heartbreaker"-