I'd give it up for just one more day with you
totally friggin exhausted. vball tournament today--i am completely drained. im still wondering how i managed to keep it together at cocoa today, i about broke down atleast 3 different times, i did everything i could to keep my mind off everything and not think about it....which meant no walking outside. yet i still managed to walk by like 3 different spots and be like 'holy crap--almost a year ago--im such an idiot'. (that whole last part had absolutley no relation to volleyball..haha..everyone did so great..placing 1st in our pool at our first tournament is AWESOME!!)
i dont know why i bother going out of my way to call you to1- just be ignored, 2- listen to u talk to me in that "fake my guy friends are around" voice and 3-have u tell me ur guna call me later when im dead f-ing tired. not like u really wanted to talk anyway GOSH >:o and then u cant even tell that i might be the slightest bit annoyed. I dont know whats worse, you not noticing, or noticing and not saying anything....? even so, i guess it doesnt really matter. Or is it just you making it seem like it doesnt?
well just wanted to get that lame shit out, guys have rly been pissing me off lately. besides that everything else is somewhat decent (for the time being)
-mar