i dont use this much do i

[bitterpunk]

hello well what can i say. kathy and i just recently came back from france and it was great. i had a wonderfull time and there would be no one else in the world i would spend it with. i did things i never thought i would get to do in my life like swimming in the mediterranean sea or seeing a mass at norte dame. it was amazing. we both still really jet laged from the trip.

im going to kinda go off on a rant here but i just feel like getting this out. for the last ten or so years i have been obseesed with music and i still am dont get me wrong but the past years have shown me so much more things that i want out of life. its been on my mind alot latley. i have been showing all the guitar parts of dynamite 8 songs to two amazing guitar players so the band can do a big tour without me. its taking alot of time to do and is really stressfull but i would like them to do as much as they want but with the understanding of what i want to. it dosent bother me that other people are playing songs i wrote and if anything im very happy if it helps them get to were they want to be.

i not ranting because im quiting the band, cause im not. but i know something in me has
changed. if i could explain it i would but i truly cant. anyways that was my rant.