Ew ew ew!
Ew! I suck so freakin' bad at this thing. In fact, I had completely forgotten that I have it. *shakes her head* But hopefully, I'm back now and able to keep up with this thing. Maybe? Hopefully? Those of you who see me online need to give me a good bitch cyber slap sometimes and tell me to go check my OOC journal and write in it! Okay? Thank you!
Things have been crazy lately, to be honest. Between work running me ragged, getting ready to go back to school, and just trying to find time for me to help myself get over my little self esteem quirks, no wonder I died off. Well, what do you all say that I start here at the beginning, eh?
As alot of you know, I was suspended from school, UMSL. They suspended me without probation, which I don't think you're even allowed to do. So, I was like, "screw you, I'll go somewhere else." That's when I transferred to Fontbonne. Well, I was there for about a month and then, I find out that a third of your tuition had to be paid by the first day of classes, even if you were waiting for financial aid, or you were to be dropped from your classes. So, once more, I pulled a "screw you" and decided to give UMSL another shot. I was supposed to be suspended for a full year, but I wrote an appeal to the dean and everything, and I got back in a semester early! Whoo! Go me! *laughs* I do have a huge list of things that have to be done, given to me by the dean, such as keeping at LEAST a 3.5 (med schools won't even CONSIDER you without a 3.8), I have to meet with my advisor once every three weeks, and I have to meet with my instructors one a month. Anyway, I go back on Monday, and I'm so freakin' excited I can barely contain myself. And no, that was not sarcastic. *laughs*
Work, well... I trained on our carside service. More or less, people call in an order to go, and when they come to pick it up, we bring it directly to the car. So, it's like a more sophisticated version of Sonic. *laughs* I also trained as what we call an expo. That means that you take all the plates, garnish them, put on dressings, and get each order together when it's ready. That also means that you're in charge in the kitchen. Well, let me just say... when I expo, I kick ass, okay? *laughs* You have this little girl who's like, so timid when she's serving yelling orders and everything... demanding respect and in charge of like, six to eight men who are cooking. *grins* I LOVE being the expo.
My self esteem? Eh. Same as always. Kind of. I still get down on myself and upset, but it's not as frequent lately. It's weird. I dunno. Moving on.
Okay... lastly, I was talking to a friend of mine last night, who I'm hoping will end up reading this. If she doesn't acknowledge that it's for her, I'm going to point it out. As all of you know, I'd do anything for my friends. I'd even go as far as giving them... hell, a liver, or something, if they needed it. *winks* In trying to encourage this person, I actually sat back and listened to myself, and I'm going to tell all of you something that I told her. When you start feeling down and life really just sucks, remember this... in 100 years, it's not going to matter and no one is going to care. No one is going to care if you have a pile of laundry in your hall, if you failed that test, if you got a speeding ticket, if you had a fight with someone. Therefore, when life hands you something that really bums you out, remember that if in 100 years, no one is going to care, then it shouldn't bother you today. I know that's really easier said than done, but life is also easier if you keep a smile and positive attitude. And on that note, here's one more bit of encouragement, not only for her, but for myself and for all of you...
This is a call to the colorblind
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind the horizon line
Tied up in something true
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Why is it not my time?
What is there more to learn?
Shed this skin I've been tripping in
Never to quite return
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body
Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame
If a flame's what it takes to remember my name
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Wait for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now
Okay, well. *laughs* I think I need to go and get some food and stuff. I'll be back later y'all. Much love!
Things have been crazy lately, to be honest. Between work running me ragged, getting ready to go back to school, and just trying to find time for me to help myself get over my little self esteem quirks, no wonder I died off. Well, what do you all say that I start here at the beginning, eh?
As alot of you know, I was suspended from school, UMSL. They suspended me without probation, which I don't think you're even allowed to do. So, I was like, "screw you, I'll go somewhere else." That's when I transferred to Fontbonne. Well, I was there for about a month and then, I find out that a third of your tuition had to be paid by the first day of classes, even if you were waiting for financial aid, or you were to be dropped from your classes. So, once more, I pulled a "screw you" and decided to give UMSL another shot. I was supposed to be suspended for a full year, but I wrote an appeal to the dean and everything, and I got back in a semester early! Whoo! Go me! *laughs* I do have a huge list of things that have to be done, given to me by the dean, such as keeping at LEAST a 3.5 (med schools won't even CONSIDER you without a 3.8), I have to meet with my advisor once every three weeks, and I have to meet with my instructors one a month. Anyway, I go back on Monday, and I'm so freakin' excited I can barely contain myself. And no, that was not sarcastic. *laughs*
Work, well... I trained on our carside service. More or less, people call in an order to go, and when they come to pick it up, we bring it directly to the car. So, it's like a more sophisticated version of Sonic. *laughs* I also trained as what we call an expo. That means that you take all the plates, garnish them, put on dressings, and get each order together when it's ready. That also means that you're in charge in the kitchen. Well, let me just say... when I expo, I kick ass, okay? *laughs* You have this little girl who's like, so timid when she's serving yelling orders and everything... demanding respect and in charge of like, six to eight men who are cooking. *grins* I LOVE being the expo.
My self esteem? Eh. Same as always. Kind of. I still get down on myself and upset, but it's not as frequent lately. It's weird. I dunno. Moving on.
Okay... lastly, I was talking to a friend of mine last night, who I'm hoping will end up reading this. If she doesn't acknowledge that it's for her, I'm going to point it out. As all of you know, I'd do anything for my friends. I'd even go as far as giving them... hell, a liver, or something, if they needed it. *winks* In trying to encourage this person, I actually sat back and listened to myself, and I'm going to tell all of you something that I told her. When you start feeling down and life really just sucks, remember this... in 100 years, it's not going to matter and no one is going to care. No one is going to care if you have a pile of laundry in your hall, if you failed that test, if you got a speeding ticket, if you had a fight with someone. Therefore, when life hands you something that really bums you out, remember that if in 100 years, no one is going to care, then it shouldn't bother you today. I know that's really easier said than done, but life is also easier if you keep a smile and positive attitude. And on that note, here's one more bit of encouragement, not only for her, but for myself and for all of you...
This is a call to the colorblind
This is an IOU
I'm stranded behind the horizon line
Tied up in something true
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Why is it not my time?
What is there more to learn?
Shed this skin I've been tripping in
Never to quite return
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body
Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame
If a flame's what it takes to remember my name
Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Wait for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body
I'm bigger than my body now
Okay, well. *laughs* I think I need to go and get some food and stuff. I'll be back later y'all. Much love!