pain
i don't know why i can't get over it. he is treating me alot better than he has in years yet. unless i push it way it sits there and it hurts and hurts and hurts. he ignored me acted like he was all pissed off then when i have had enough POOF switch-o change-o he is a new man and i am supposed to be okay with this and just get over it and forgive and move on.
i can't. it hurts too much and it doesn't seem to matter to any one but me. it don't seem to matter to him. but then what do i want? what do i expect? how can i get back the time and effort i lost? the feeling i poured into this relationship?
how can i go out on limb and trust again? trust anybody?
dear god i hurt and i want it to stop. i can feel the melodrama creeping up on me screaming for some drastic expression. but what can i do?
i can't. it hurts too much and it doesn't seem to matter to any one but me. it don't seem to matter to him. but then what do i want? what do i expect? how can i get back the time and effort i lost? the feeling i poured into this relationship?
how can i go out on limb and trust again? trust anybody?
dear god i hurt and i want it to stop. i can feel the melodrama creeping up on me screaming for some drastic expression. but what can i do?