cancer
My mom sent me an e-mail yesterday on a supposedly farewell letter by Rio Diaz. She was diagnosed with cancer and almost had no chance of surviving. Her faith was the very cure that made her live up to this day. She also mentioned that everyone has a cancer. Cancer is not defined as abnormal growth of cells in our body causing complications in our system. Rather cancer can be defined as hatred, envy or any negative thoughts or feelings you have for another person. Now is this right time to get rid of the cancer. That hit me so bad in the head.
Honestly, I am not proud to say that there is a big mass of darkness in my heart. It is composed of hatred, anger, envy, wanting for revenge, discontentment, etc. Worst thing is that I know that it exists but I am doing nothing to get rid of it. Actually I can feel the "cancer" eating me up, trying to control all of me. Most of the time I just ignore it.
I know that I should get rid of this darkness thing. It is not good for me. This is not me! I am known to be someone so full of positive energy. My aura was radiating love and peace and all the good stuffs. I guess things just went out of my control. It seemed like I was doing things that other thought was right for me instead of what I truly wanted. I became cold and unhappy. Hence the cause of the darkness.
I need a doctor that could light me up again. Cure me of this disease.