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I wish I could go back to exactly one year ago, and say the things to him he deserved to hear. the things that were always on my mind that he should have known. after everything we had been through, and are still going through, we love eachother. and we both know things will never be the same. I cant see things getting at all better for us in the near future, the distance is too great, even though we are so close. from bhs to cpjh is a lot longer than imaginable. I think about what he must have gone through on account of my actions, and I realise I never talked to him about it. almost a year has gone by and not one word spoken. its like we have this pact to not mention it. that if we talk about it, something bad will happen, history will repeat itself. Im scared to ask him about it. but maybe, that day. that one day. January 19th, I will talk to him finally. after exactly one year, the curse will be broken. maybe things will get better between us. maybe, maybe we can be happy again. I dont know.
well, bad weekend. moms a bitch, dad got arrested, we arent moving back to bothell, lindsey and I fought, jacob and I fought, and I might just end up changing schools. I dont know. things are retarded right now. Im not exactly sure where Im gonna live for the time being. thats it I guess. seeya round.
well, bad weekend. moms a bitch, dad got arrested, we arent moving back to bothell, lindsey and I fought, jacob and I fought, and I might just end up changing schools. I dont know. things are retarded right now. Im not exactly sure where Im gonna live for the time being. thats it I guess. seeya round.