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theres a time in your life when you just know that nothing will be the same anymore. now I know that I wont be dependent on you, I wont rely on you for happiness. Im not angry, or sad. Im just.. neutral. Im ready for a regular friendship with you, and everyone else in this world now. the past few monthes I have stopped being sarah, but I found myself again. my new life with envolve me and only me, as far as I am concerned. but if anyone wants to be my friend, to be in my life, tell me. I wont give anything for you anymore, but I am more than willing to be a friend to you.
havnt updated in awhile. lets see, I went to scotts house, and watched the passion. good movie. I went over to bobs house to give him his bday presant. those are the exciting things that have happened to me last week. buuuuuuut....
FRIDAY! WHOO! okay, pep assembly was fucking great. I was so hyper and went completly psyco. gotta love it when sarah is doing the disco in front of the entire school with her new converse. later that night, I went to the football game, hung out with dylan, brandon, ryan, and a few others. got soaked. I went home with lindsey, we splashed in some hella tight puddles. spent the night at her house, next morning went to my house, got all prettied up, and went to markys party. I got closer with a few people, talked to ian again, got to talk to gianna a lot, julie and me
kissed, then marky started beating me with a vaccuum cleaner, so I stole it from him and beat him up. lindsey and I repeatedly tackled him and it was great. we played the suprise hiccy game, and I started this cool thing where you like... bite, pull, and suck on a persons face. it feels so damn cool. I rule.
after the party, lindsey, steph, jessi, amanda, davey, and jess all came over to my house. we stayed up and just messed around all night. everyong (minus lindsey and steph) went and jumped on my trampoline naked. so funny. we made kool aid with 3 cups of sugar instead of one. yayers. nothing to specifically wonderful happened last night, but it was so much fun. actually, best part of my weekend, we were all laying in my living room, it was like 9 am, and david jumps up and goes into the kitchen for a bowl of cereal. hilarious.
last night I remembered who I was. I used to be carefree and spontaneous, but then you came into my life. I stopped doing anything that I thought you might not like. I did everything I could to make you happy. but last night, I wasnt worried about what you might think, I wasnt even thinking about you at all. I was me again, and everyone who was with me loved me. I have not had that before. but now I do, and I hope you will embrace me for remembering who you used to love, and bringing her back.
this is me, like it or not.