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[bitter_demise]

sometimes i forget how alone i am
then i see them all together
but only from behind these bricks and this glass window
i wonder what its like beyond here
beyond this point of no return
like when a bird learns to fly
i wish to fly
but my wings havent grown yet
i need to let go of my fear
im afraid to grow up
im afraid of the suit and tie life
im afriad of the responsibility
i cut out all of my problems
so i could never learn from mistakes
my body has become so numb
ive forgotten how it feels to feel
sometimes i try to have a conversation but
as well as these walls listen they never seem to remember
i use to think my writing would help
but my words only speak of problems
but they cant solve them
sometimes a tear sneaks out
i dont cry though even when i should
because i dont remember pain and sadness
i try to, but my mind draws blanks
im sick of not knowing
i want to learn to fly
one day ill break this glass window
one day i wont be alone